S H AW N ME N D E S

NE R VOU S

March 5, 2017

{Shawn's POV}

     It was an early foggy Sunday morning and I had to make it to the studio by 3. I was really hesitant get up today, since I didn't sleep to well.

I opened the curtains that were on the right side of my bed by pulling the thin white strings. Its was grey and cloudy, yet warm.

I slugglishly got up grabbing my phone and heading to my closest grabbing my usual black denim jeans and and a grey button up, with cuffed sleeves to my elbows.

     I threw stuff around with out thinking, I couldn't find my boots. I ran to my closet only to find my scuffed Saint Laurent boots, which were fine, but I was going in public.

Public= people= paparazzi=fans=pictures...

So I mainly try my best to look decent.

{Shawn's Text}

Andrew💪🏻~ Be here by 3 we will send a Uber to the location you are at, okay?

Shawn M🙄~
Yep, I'll be there.

Andrew💪🏻~ good, can't wait to get started!👏🏻

{end of text}

I speed walk to the bathroom turning on the silver sink. The wind blew through the window making me shiver a little while splashing the ice water to my face.
I put on my moisturizer, brush my teeth and floss.

I grab the mouthwash gargling it, I walk over to my night stand grabbing my 'GUCCI made to measure' cologne {he actually said he uses this  so ahah}
I spit the mouthwash in the sink, almost missing it and dry my mouth.

Running out of the room and into the kitchen I grab my keys out of the pocket of the tan coat on the bar seat, I grabbed my wallet and headed out the door to my Jeep.

{skip the 20 minute drive}

"Just keep me where the light is.
Just keep me where the light is.
Come on keep where the light is.
Come on keep me where, keep me where the light is" I sing softly to 'gravity' by John Mayer as it comes to an end.

I arrived at Grace's Cafe, I walk in the door and people suddenly stare me down. My eye catches this one girl very quickly. Since I saw her briefly, I look again only to see her staring back and she quickly turns back to her friend.
She looked Familiar, I believe Geoff mentioned her to me. I think Lydia?

She looked at her friend again and I see her mouth " I think thats Shawn, my friend Geoff  told me that he wanted us to meet up" she grinned. My heart started racing so fast. My hands shook a little. I quickly tried to brush it off. My mind question if she noticed.

"HELLO? SHAWN! Hello?"  The barista yelled at me. "Oh sorry," I said scratching my neck, from the corner of my eye, I saw Lydia giggle. She was so Beautiful. "  May I please get a warmed chocolate chip muffin and a espresso shot." She nodded, and I payed.

I walked to sit down by the fire pit , which was pretty close to her table. "Should I talk to him?" She questioned her friend tucking the hair behind her back gently. She had on a yellow knit sweater, black ripped jeans with white slip on vans. Her hair flowed down her back and with the hair line in a middle part, which she looked pretty cute in.

" Go for it lydia," so it is Lydia!
" he has been looking at you too"
Her friend said and my mouth hung open a little.
Fuck!
I was caught. My heart was now racing, I was stressing. I could feel my heart pulse through out my whole body.

I was nervous but for some reason I also felt excited. I smiled and looked down at my muffin.

I saw her slowly get up fixing her tight jeans and pushing her hair behind her back again after it falling to the front from slumping.
She was walking over.
Omg a hot girl was walking over. 9-1- fucking-1
Help!
Life alert?
Is this what my fans feel like when they see me?
Shook with their wigs snatched?
That how I feel right NOW!

She slid into the seat across from me, kind of struggling to get on the tall seat.
"Your Geoff's friend right?" She smiled kindly.
"Yea and you are Lydia?" I asked raising an eye brow, her eyes went wide as she blushed looked back at her friend who was eating a sugar cookie barely noticing her. "Um...y-yea, I know who you are shawn everyone does" She quickly said as I started reaching out my hand for her to shake, I pulled away fast and she laughed.

My heart pounded so god damn fast. I probably look like a tomato and I don't want to be that. Ugh
We continued our conversation for another hour and it ended up being around 8:15.
She was such a funny girl. She is a writer, an artist and she is very athletic as well.
She also sings!
My god what can't she do.

{she cant be truthful and sometimes unfaithful when she is lonely🐸☕️}

"Want to hang for a little, my apartment is right down the block?" She asked with puppy eyes.
"Why not" I nodded, trying to act chill yet dying inside.

We threw out our trash and walked out the cafe , and it starts drizzling, "luckily I have my umbrella" She giggled cocking her head.
We walked in silence just enjoying the views and sounds.

We came up to a red brick, tall home. She scanned her card unlocking the door. She pulled me inside smiling super widely. She looked me in the eye and smiled very large. "So this is my home!" She said move her hand out to the side, then looking back at me.
She was so beautiful, I felt conscious of my own self. But I enjoyed it. I felt insanely nervous around her, even for the next couple times we have got together.

{some of these stories will be in 2016 and 17. Maybe only 2 in 2018 depending on who I think they are about. I am doing the each song on what I believe happened in Shawn's life that inspired the song. I used people I actually thought they were about.
I made some exceptions, I think there were obviously other girls in his life that we don't know about. which is why I chose to use 'Lydia' and etc. }