Warning: themes in this chapter may be triggering
The room was so dark it had to have been night time and the moon had to have been covered by the clouds. I couldn't check if that was so - there were no windows in the room, nor was there a door. I stood alone in the center of the pitch darkness. I was not scared, although I know I should have been. Instead, it felt normal. As if this was a daily occurance.
Suddenly, a light was summoned into every corner of the room. Extravagant flora entwined with each other in such a way it was impossible to see the walls. That is, to presume there were walls. From amongst the unnaturally overgrown daisies, a figure appeared. He was younger than be by at least five years. His eyes smiled although he bit his bottom lip so tight I thought it might start to bleed.
I stood looked straight at him and had just realised I hadn't blinked for an eternity, yet my body did not allow me to do so. I continued to stare at the boy. I smiled.
He dropped to his knees and covered his mouth with his hands as he began to cry. I approached him compulsively and put my arms around him. I began to stroke him back but he jerked up. His eyes were still smiling. "Layla," he whispered, and although I had never heard his voice, I knew exactly who he was. Then, I too began to cry.
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The tears ran down my cheeks like ever-flowing rivers as every bad thought entered my mind at once, throwing a party of negativity. I missed him all too much and that one dream had put a dent in my heart. I began to wonder if it was really him or if it was just a mind game. It couldn't really be him. But if it was, he was beautiful.
Then I started to think of everything else:
•My parents think I'm a failure
•Dylan will never love me
•No one would really care if I died
•The world would be better off without me
The familiar ringtone I had set for Gordon began to sound and my head began to pulse to its beats. I picked up my phone and cried to Gordon, telling him my tragic life story.
"Don't think like that!" he persisted.
"But I hate everything! And everything hates me!"
"Yeah but... what is Dylan's secretly in love with you!"
"He's not. Shut up. He wouldn't care if I died."
"Yes, he would. I would. Everyone would."
"Shut up, I'm going to cry."
"Just don't do anything stupid."
I put the phone down and cried more and more. Maybe everything will turn out okay, but that doesn't mean it's okay right now.
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Well, that was depressing.
Thanks, it's the depression-
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My Heart, Not Yours
Teen FictionThe story of a stolen heart. Layla was an average teenage girl who went to an average teenage school and developed an average teenage crush on her friend's brother, Dylan, who was two grades above her. Pretty normal, right? Wrong. No one - not her...