A Dream Come True

Chapter 6

I closed my as quickly as I could when his towel dropped. Even though I got a little peek of the "goods".

Harry quickly put his towel back and apologized.

"So, why did you wanted to see me?"

"I kind of need someone to talk to." He said, I got surprised actually.

"Why don't you talk to one of the boys?" I asked.

"I can't" He said and looked down a little.

"Okay, I can try, but you have to put some clothes on first." I said and laughed a bit. He put his clothes on and sat down next to me.

"What's up?" I asked him. He waited a bit before he answered.

"I think I need a break from all this." he said and looked at me. I was in a shock and didn't know what to say.

"I, uhm, I understand things can be a bit too much. Are you sure about this?" I said.

"I'm so tired all the time, I'm not sure if I'm into this anymore."

"Think about the pros and cons. What do you love about this?"

"I get to travel around with my four best friends, and you for now. I love to perform, I love meeting the fans and hear what we've done for them. I love to see all this new places."

"That's something to be grateful about." I said. "What are the cons?"

"I know. Uhm, I hate being tired so much, I hate being followed my people everywhere I go, I can't have one day private. I hate all the rumors and being thrown things at on stage. I hate not feeling good enough for the world."

"Oh, Harry! You're so good enough for the world. I've never felt good enough for the world, but I've felt something like it and I know it's hard. But look at all the fans that loves you! You wouldn't been in this situation if they didn't think you were good enough. There will always be someone who dislikes you, they are just not worth thinking about. You are great the way you are and you don't have to feel this way." I said and looked at him. I could see a small smile in his eyes when I said it. 

"You can have a day private at home you know. You don't have to go out all the time, have some friends over, or the family. Ask for a week or month off where you can get things right. They got to respect that." I said and stroked his back carefully.

"I know, but I can't disappoint the fans or the boys."

"The boys will understand, maybe they think the same way. And if the fans don't respect it they are not true fans." I said. "At least I will respect it. I know the feeling when you just have to step back from reality and have a break. Things can get a bit too much, even in my life." I said and laughed a bit, but the laugh slowly faded away.

We sat in silence for a few minutes before anyone said anything.

"Thank you." Harry said and hugged me. I hugged him back and he tightened the grip around me.

"How do you feel?" I said and let go from the hug.

"Better. I think I will ask for some months off after this tour."

"That's good, if you need some support when you ask I can be there."

"Yeah, that would be great."

"Come! Let's not be miserable here!" I said and got up. "Let's do something fun!"

We went over to Harry's place with the boys.

"Where should I sleep?"

"Well, there's only one place available." Harry said quietly. I just looked at him with a question mark on my face.

"My bed."

"Where do you sleep?" I asked being confused.

"In my bed." Harry said and looked at me.

"Oh.." I said. "I guess that's fine."

We sat down next to a small bonfire, it was their evening off. 

"Anynone want to take a swim?" Liam asked, referring to the pool.

All the boys wanted to, I said no and didn't move. The boys, except Harry, jumped in after changing their clothes.

"Why don't you want to take a swim?" Harry asked while he sat down next to me in his boxers.

"I don't like wearing a bikini." I said, being embarrassed. Harry didn't know what to say to me and just sat there.

"Well, I want you to." He said before he got into the pool. The boys goofed around for a while and went inside to shower and change. Harry didn't change and sat down next to me.

"You can go in now." He said and smiled a bit.

"I know, but that would be boring." I said and laughed a bit.

"I can join you. The boys are going to bed now so they won't be around."

"I don't know Harry, it's still awkward being in a bikini."

For some reason, Harry managed to talk me into it. I quickly changed to my bikini and walked out, my hands covering my stomach. Harry approached me and looked me in the eyes and moved my hands away. He held them in his hands and just looked at me.

"You're beautiful no matter what." he said and smiled at me.

"When I said I was okay now, I left out the feelings I have about myself." I said and looked down. Harry lifted my face up and stared into my eyes.

"I won't look." He said and closed his eyes and let go of my hands.

I quickly jumped into the water and Harry came after once he heard the splash. We goofed around in the pool until midnight when we had to go to sleep. We both quickly showered before we went to bed.

We lied next to each other and just looked up.

"Thank you." I said.

"For what?" Harry said being confused. 

"For not looking at my body" I said quietly.

"It's the least I can do." He said and turned over facing me.

I did the same thing and we stared at each other. Harry moved closer to me. He placed his hand on my cheek and stared into my eyes.

"No matter what you think of yourself, you'll always be beautiful in my eyes." He said and slowly kissed me on my lips. I shouldn't have kissed him back, but I did. We parted from the kiss, both being a bit embarrassed. 

"That was wrong." I said, feeling guilty for saying it right after.

"I know, but I had to." Harry said and looked at me. We agreed to not tell anyone about it and went to sleep.

-After the tour-

It was a week until my birthday, Jessica and I have been talking about a small party to celebrate my day. I don't want one but I guess it's okay.

We're at Jessica's apartment when our best friend, Alex, comes over. We've been making a lot of music videos lately and it's become pretty popular.

"Hey guys! Just got off the phone with the managers from the Brit Awards. We're nominated for Best Internet Sensation." (play along that there is a category named this.)

We all freaked out and we're so happy, we jumped around and just went crazy.