Wide Awake - The Story Untold | BTS ff

It's the season

A/N
Yes how time will fly! I'm glad you are here with me again, we are closing up to Christmas and I'm not sure how much I want to reveal. I'll just leave it to you.
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Authors pov. To celebrate with absent friends.

They had spent some very busy days preparing the combined Christmas/ Birthday party.
It was hard to buy any gifts under these circumstances but actually , Holly had been a great help. Only, one day she didn't show up. She had been summoned again, the top gear didn't like the visits. Jungkooks little tamperings had been revealed and now they wanted to know what she had been saying and what she had been informed about.
Simultaneously,  Grant had been set free. To everyone's surprise, one very reliable witness stepped forward and revealed unquestionable proof.  And as there was no chance whatsoever to take that witness in to custody, the authorities had to begin their search again.  It was indeed a delicate matter and they let it rest until after the seasons festivities.  It also made clear to them that no information could be found in those boys.
The answers were to be found elsewhere .
Holly , who were to be questioned twice in a day, had to be released. The crown witness would free her as well. But to be honest,  her integrity and skill was the focus of the discussions even before. She had, with one loud fist in the desk and a fierce speach regarding the boys health, had them open the doors to the dorm.The new twist in the process also meant that the internet restrictions had to be abandoned. That was the real Christmas gift. Namjoon had eagerly embraced the opportunity to search for answers. He began searching for material concerning their disappearance. The first thing that struck him was that it had been 2020. 64 years. But that was not of interest.  Something else was. Really really interesting.

Meanwhile the preparing of festivities went on, decorating, baking, cocking..
The staff that surrounded the boys were charmed by them, and had some hard times being strict and follow protocol. More often, one of the guards would slip in and chat.
There were scientists too and lots of military . Being outside they could watch the constant commotion, trucks coming and going, lowkeyed noice shaking the soil underneath their feet. 
To everybody's relief, Taehyung had popped out of his heavy moods, initiating dance classes in the gym and goofing around the place. To a certain extent, it all seemed normal,
being together and being looked after,  like children. They took turns on keeping spirits up, singing, joking,  encouraging. But inside, they were lost.

Namjoons pov. Logentry.

This is my, ahm,  7th logentry. Christmas is two days away and so much have changed so quickly. We got news about the trial, they all got off the hook. After reading the details of that protocol.....I'm glad we weren't awake.  But I'm bothered about the 7th tube that was broken. Was he in it?  I wish I could take Seokjins advice, hyung is telling me to stay off the internet.  He sat beside me first day, there was so much , I didn't know what to look for. But we found one entry, that's how I found out about the year, 2020. We were going to get drafted all of us, in a bunch. 

But that wasn't it, we were invited after the Billboard, a music event, I can't remember, strange. It seems we were invited to visit Cape Canaveral. And after that visit there was no trace.  " Korean wonderboys disappeared during their visit"  That's us it seems.
Headlines went on for weeks, there was this manager, Mr Bang , saying he wouldn't rest until we were back. But we weren't.  A year after the headlines said that we had dropped out, they called us defectors and there were people I don't think I've ever seen that could vouch for us being defectors and living under new identities . That we had had enough of the political system in South Korea. It seems this was the official version of our disappearance.
Taehyung knew this already , speaking to the non person, that Singular.
We thought Tae was scared to death by him but Taehyungi is nothing like the rest of us.
Singular played more than Hoseoks voice to him. He told him this as well. The official statements. By whom? Jin, bless him, hovers over me like a hawk. Yah! That's what he says to me, stop it right there. It's enough. For now.

We are told that before we make any announcements we have to go through that man Holler. He pays for us but he wants to keep the mystery until the right moment. Then I think he's going to stand in the limelight for his 15 minutes of fame, showing us to the world - the boys that lived.  I thought we were the unofficial secret of the government, but there's more to it.  I'm not sure even the staff here knows. They are being really nice to us, but we want to go home. I want to take my bike down to Han River and lay down on the grass, watching the sky. This is a desert. 
Jimin, who's been watching far too many scary movies , says that we are being kept at Area 51! Ha! Such a sweet dork our Jimin is.

Nurse Holly has been here often lately, she's been so supportive. She got us out of the house. She....no....I shouldn't talk about that.  Oh yeah, she brought some music files for Tae.  It was from Singular. He plans to play them for Christmas. We all know now who we are but not how we got into this mess. But we seem to be performers. Jimin and Jungkook says they can't use their legs properly, so they started dancing sessions with Tae in the gym. 
Nurse Holly will bring her old grandfather here to celebrate Christmas. I can't really remember what it was like, I remember colours and candy and music.
I have so many dreams, we all have. The scariest come and go. We share them when we need to. I've spent several nights....oh no matter. 
I'll wrap up here, no one came to join me today. We're busy preparing. But I'm not allowed in the kitchen and not around decorations either. So, haha, I'll go back to wrapping gifts, they can't forbid me that anyway. I've never broken a parcel.......have I?
Sugahyung though, I don't know, he started to light up, talk and laugh. He's been so
So...depressed.. quiet. But he lighted up, Jimin and Jungkookie didn't rest on him.
Today he's been wandering off, it's probably the expectations. We're celebrating without family and without our Hobi. I miss him so much.
Kim Namjoon out.

Yoongis pov. Being an idiot.

- You idiot!!! Stupid, presumptuous idiot!
He yelled at his own image in the mirror.
All day he'd been out walking,  in circles. They had watched him but not dare to confront him. Jimin, dear Jimin, came out to him with a can of ale and some fried turkey.
He smiled a very small smile, and skipped in. Yoongi would normally have smiled back since he loved Jimin so much, but not now.
Now it was pitch dark outside. The sun would set very abruptly out here, wherever this was, damn desert, damn dust, damn everything!! 
The last few days had been too much. First they got out because of Holly........he stopped yelling for a while. Holly. He was such a fool!! She was caring about them all. She was upset about their health and the conditions they were living under.
She had taken steps to make their lives better. She never told them about her own hardships, the interrogations.  She was kind. She was beautiful. She was....home.
He looked at her and his clouds went away. He didn't even feel tired.
But why did he think that he was anything special to her?

- You're an idiot!!!
This time there was a knock at his door. He heard an upset voice outside:
- Yah! If you want someone to agree with you, I'm right here. Why are you yelling in the middle of the night you....
Yoongi sighed. He opened the door slowly.
- Go away hyung, I will be quiet, I........he collapsed right into Seokjins wide arms.
The oldest looked at the mess his firespitting former roommate was in. Yoongis shoulders was shaking badly and he smelled like....
- How much ale did you have?
- All of it. No there's two bottles left....he mumbled through his pathetique sobbing.
- Is it Hoseok?
- No. No. He's dead. I wish I was too.  Jinhyung, she hates me.
- She.....you mean, nurse Holly? Why would she?
Yoongi handed over his text unit .
- Read.
" Yoongi , please don't text me now for a while.  I need to think and there are things you need to know. I'm sorry, I'm just so confused. I'll see you at Christmas.  Holly."
- What did you do?
- I kissed her.......
- Oh...I see. Sit down, I'll go and get the beer. I won't leave until you are asleep, okey?

A/N
Oh did you think we would be celebrating already?  No, but soon. We now know that Singular for some reason stepped out and delivered some of that he had been hiding.
He's not telling everything though. But he does seem to care for Tae? How can a non person care?  What will happend when Holler goes public?
But first, what will Christmas be like when things are so messed up? We'll  see.