Is this Love or Hate?

Chapter 5

Today is Saturday and I'm glad. I didn't want to see Ash.

I lay in my bed and just sigh heavily. Remembering yesterday and all the events. Why does Ash care so much? i don't get it.

Suddenly when I hear the front door open I'm a bit startled. And then I hear the rough scratchy voices of my so called parents. I try to ignore them and collect my thoughts. But they'er too loud. What are they doing down there I think. I get out of my bed still in my pajamas, even though its 1:30 P.M. I make my way down the steps slowly and quietly. When I reach the bottom I notice the voices are coming from the kitchen.

I slowly make my way into bright white, fancy looking kitchen and see them both, yelling at each other. They dont notice me so I just listen to their argument.

" It's YOUR fault shes this way! If It wernt for YOU she would've been a good kid and we would be a normal family. But NOOOO YOU said that we should just ignore her. And made sure she had money and food. Just because YOU didn't get a baby boy YOU neglect your own daughter." My mother Yells at my father.

" Don't blame this all on me You have as much to do with it as me! Yes it was my idea to have her practicaly raise herself. And yes I was upset we didn't have a boy. But you agreed to to this too! You said You didn't want a child in the first place so its your fault too. Shes fine right now and she doesn't want to to anything with us anyways so we should just keep going the way it is! Its to late to fix it now." My father yells back at my father.

I can tell thy'er drunk cause some of thir words are slurred. Even though I was never close to my parents and i didnt really love them the words still hurt. They both never really wanted me.

They keep going on blaming each other. And when I think its gotten to far I step in to stop them.

I walk in the middle and scream,

" Its your both Damn faults. Your BOTH horrible parents that never acknowledged my existence. And ignored me. YOU BOTH just brushed my aside like I was never anything. Stop all the damn yelling cause your both responsible for neglecting me!" I finish and look at their expressions. I guess their shocked I heard their fight. Before the questioning begins and before all my tears spill I run out of the house. I don't stop and I don't look back. I just keep running.

I find myself at a tree. Not just any tree. It was a great oak that held special memories for me. Many good and bad memories and some memories I dont want to re-open. With the tears stinging my eyes I fall to my knees, hands covering eyes and begin to let the tears flow.

"Why? Why me? Why cant I be normal? Why cant my past be easy? What did I ever do to deserve this life?" I scream at the tree. Even though I know nothing can answer me I wait. I wait for a response. Nothing. I'm so foolish as to think a tree can answer me.

And to my luck it begins to rain. I press my back against the tree and put my head between my knees and sob quietly.

I usally hold in my tears and dont cry. But Its getting to be to much for myself to bare. So I decide to let it all out.

**** ASH'S P.O.V.*********

I watched as Beth springs out her front door looking about ready to cry. She keeps running. Should I fallow her? No that would only make things worse. She hates me for trying to be her friend. But there's something about her that I like so much. She's beautiful, and quiet but her voice is sweet. Even though its always mad at me.

The other day I saw Beth go into the music room and I followed her there. I know I sound a lot like a stalker, but I think I beginning to like her. Then When I heard her beautiful voice sing I was amazed. She could sing really good. But the song was so sad. I made sure she didn't notice me and I left before  she could find me.

Beth is so mysterious and there is something she's hiding and I know it. I have so many questions but she wont answer them and it only adds to my curiosity. And she always looks so sad.

I decide to follow her without her knowing.

She keeps going and going until she stops at a big tree. And then she begins to cry. It's heartbreaking to see the way she cries. Its like shes been holding them in forever. Its so sad. And then she screams,

"Why? Why me? Why cant I be normal? Why cant my past be easy? What did I ever do to deserve this life?"

What does she mean her past? I want to know everything about her. I want to help her. I want to ease her pain. When I see her start sobbing again I go over to her and sit beside her.

********* Beth's P.O.V.**************

I feel a warm body sit beside me. I slowly lift my head from my knees to see who it is.

Ash.

Ash is here seeing me cry and sat next to me. Great. Did he hear what I screamed? Is he hear to argue with me? I begin to open my mouth to say something but all that comes out is more sobs and tears.

Then I feel arms wrapped around me In a warm embrace. He's hugging me? Why?

" It's okay. I'm a friend you don't have to hide your tears." Ash says slowly and calmly. But i don't say anything. I cant. All I do is cry in his shoulder and let him hold me.

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