Is this Love or Hate?

Chapter 6

I wake up to the sound of birds. My eyes are sore from all the tears. And I'm a bit damp. And then I realize I'm outside at the big oak tree. And A pair of arms are still wraped around me just like they were all night.

And those arms belong to Ash. He held me all night and let me cry until I fell asleep. But he never let me go. And he still hasnt. At first I think how sweet he was to stay with me and let cry. He's still asleep so I take the chance to really look at him.

His brown hair is standing up in all places and his face is relaxed and still. His muscles are a bit tense around me I can feel it. But his arms around me feel right. It makes me feel safe and warm.

And then I remember. I cant have these feelings again, it makes me to vanuralbe. It's not safe the same thing can happen again. And besides I hate ash remember.

I try to push his arm off me but they only tighten.

" Get off and let me go!" I say still pushing his arms. His eyes open and they just stare at me.

" I said let me go!" I say agin. This time he removes his hands and i stan up and begin to walk away.

" wait!" Ash calls after me.

I stop and turn around to face him. Here comes the questions I think. Why did he have to follow me in the first place?

He reaches me and says, " Are you okay?" Well this suprized me. i was expecting something like 'what happened last night' or ' why were you crying' But instead he asks about my wellbeing.

" Yes I'm fine I guess. Oh and thanks for...." I start to say but Ash cuts me off.

" No problem, besides I'm a friend And thats what friends do" He says with a smile.

I send him a sad, small smile in return and I begin to walk back to my house even though I'm dreading the thought of running into my parents.

I look back over my shoulder and see Ash just staring at me while I walk away. I ignore it and keep going until I reach my front door.

I keep my hand on the door knob, thinking if I should go in. But where else would I go? I gather my courage and open it slowly.

It's quiet. That means their not home. Thats good.

I scramble up to my room and shut myself from the world with music. It calms me and I like it. I close my eyes and just listen to the lyrics, quietly singing along,

"Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb

You're not the only one

I'll take you by the hand

And I'll show you a world that you can understand

This life is filled with hurt

When happiness doesn't work

Trust me and take my hand

When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony

Are better than misery

Trust me I've got a plan

When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing

Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)

That you're wounded

You know (You know you know you know you know)

That I'm here to save you

You know (You know you know you know you know)

I'm always here for you

I know (I know I know I know I know)

That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love

Pain, can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Rather feel pain than nothing at all

Rather feel pain"

I finish the song and just lay in bed thinking over the day.

I hate Ash so much. I hate him for making me feel this way agin, I hate him for being kind and I hate him for not ignoring me like everyone else.

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