Is this Love or Hate?

Chapter 14

~ One month later ~

June fourth.

The past weeks have been wonderful with Ash. He makes me forget about Cody and helps me go on with life. We confronted my parents and they didn't give a damn. So I no longer go there I basically live at Ash's house, the guest room has been turned into my room. Ash's parents love me but I still feel like a burden, but they insist i stay here away from my abusive family.

So here I am living at my boyfriends house.

Last week was senior prom and Ash took me. I wore a dark blue that had a tint of green dress with black heels. My hair was curled and Ash wore a tux. He looked so handsome when I first saw him i swore I begun drooling. The night was wonderful we danced and enjoyed our time together.

I have been realizing that Ash really does love me and I love him. He does small things that mean a lot and I don't know what I would do without him. He really was right from the beginning. I'm glad he never gave up even though I was being a jerk he still didn't stop because he knew there was a reason for my depression.

I look at my phone and see the date. June 4. It's been a year since he left. I'm glad today is Sunday because i don't think I would be able to go to school. As soon as I remember the day and every detail I begin to feel sad and all I want to do is cry.

Today I'm going to visit his grave. I haven't been there for about two months. I do miss him but Ash has replaced his love. I love Ash but I will never forget Cody. I get out of bed and head over to my closet. I pull out a black dress I wore for his funeral. I then slip it on and grab my black converse and put them on too. I put on a bit of make-up and do my hair. I then walk out of my room and find Ash in his.

" Hey, whats with all the black..." Ash asks

" Its the anniversary of Cody's death, one year. And I'm going to visit him today." I say

" Oh right. Do you want me to come along or would you prefer to be alone?" Ash asks looking a bit sad.

" Um it doesn't matter to me." I say

" I'll let you go alone so you can spend time alone. I'll just drop you off." He says

I nod my head And leave the room. I go down stairs and wait for Ash. He comes down shortly after and we get in his car. The ride is short and were there with in ten minuets.

" I love you, Beth."

I turn to look Ash in the eyes.

" I love you too." i say meaning it.

" Text me when you want me to pick you up" He says

" Okay" I say and get out of the car. i walk over to ware the Name Cody Sharp is carved into a stone. i gently lay down the white rose I got for him. I sit down and feel the ground.

" I miss you" i say tears stinging my eyes.

" And I love you. I will never stop loving you, you hold a big spot in my heart Cody." The tears begin streaming down my cheeks.

" Remember when you told me I would find someone that I love, well i didn't believe you because I thought you were the only one. But i did. His name is Ashton. And I love him. He may not be you but I have realized I need to move on and face the fact that you are gone, that you left me. And Ash helped me realize that. I love him and he loves me. But I want you to know I still love you and miss you alot. I miss the way you hugged me the feel of your arms around me. I miss the sparks I got when you kissed me and how warm your lips always were. I miss your smell, when i would bury my face in your chest that smell of you would calm me. I miss the way you would look at me with love and passion. I miss sharing ice cream at the park, I miss our friendship I miss your voice and how you would always tell me you loved me and i was the only girl for you. I miss you being there with me and making me smile and forget about all the sad things in life. But most of all Cody, I miss your smile. Your smile would always make me smile. It let me know that everything was okay and nothing could happen. Your smile made everything better and now I will never see it again. Cody i miss you so much. Why did you have to go? Why couldn't you just let me get hit. i know you promised to protect me always but you also promised me you were gonna be with me forever. But i guess some promises need to be broken. I love you and will forever. I think about you everyday but I want to thank you. I want to thank you for showing me your love and all that you did for me because I don't think i would be alive and with ash right now if it wasn't for you. I love you so much and wished you never left Cody. i miss you and will always be thinking of you. I love you." The tears keep coming but the words stop. i have said all that needed to be said. i do miss him and wish I could just be with him right now but i have Ash. I stand up and kiss my fingers and touch the stone. I whisper one last thing " I love you forever"

I begin to walk away and  pull out my phone and text Ash. He's here in a few minuets and I wipe away the last of my tears and get in we drive home and for the rest of the day I spend with Ash.

~ June 14 ~

Graduation Day.

I finish putting on my make-up and examine my self in the mirror. And I feel to arms wrap around my waist and a chin rest on my shoulder.

" You look beautiful " Ash whispers.

" Thank you" I say and turn around in his arms and crash my lips to his. I love the feel of his lips against mine. We both pull away and smile.

" You ready?" He asks.

I nod my head and head down stairs. Mr. and Mrs. Smith greet me at the front door.

" You look beautiful Beth." Mrs.Smith exclaims. Mr. Smith nods in agreement.

" Okay you too lets take pictures!" Mrs. smith says.

Ash and I stand next to each other with his arm around my waist. And we smile. After about 10 different photos Ash says, " Mom come on were gonna be late" I smile as we all head out the door and into the cars. We arrive at school and Ash and I go to the back with all the other graduates. His parents go to the seats. The whole senior class sits down and waits as each name is called.

" Beth Robins" My name is called and i stand up and make my way to the stage. I find Ash and he smiles at me I give him a smile in return. I climb the stairs and Shake the principles hand and I gladly take my diploma and Smile widely. I'm then quickly off the stage and back in my seat. Wow, i cant believe I'm already done with school. Soon Ash is called up and I whistle when hes up there he smiles and I give him a thumbs up. And after all the names are done there are a few speeches and awards.  And then We all throw our caps up in the air and scream " Class of 2012!" And as simple as that its over.

After many pictures with Ash and by myself, I'm surprised.

" Its been a while, We came to congratulate you. " She says

tears stinging my eyes I hug her then him. My biggest hug i could give.

" I've missed you." i say they both Hug me back. " I cant believe you guys came. I never would have thought you ever would come see me." i say

" Of course we would. You were like a daughter to us, we couldn't miss your graduation." They say

I hug them one more time and then Ash asks, " Who are they?"

" This is Mr. and Mrs. Sharp. Cody's parents." i say. And Ash smiles. We hang out for another ten minuets and then they leave. I'm happy they came and still think of me. They were like my parents.

And soon were back home and im in my pajamas, sitting on the couch with Ash.

" I love you so much, I'm glad your mine." Ash says

" i love you too." I say and then kiss him.

I then go to bed. I lay there looking at the ceiling and think how great my life is right now. I never thought my life would turn out like this. I'm happy and don't want it to change. Who knew a girl like me could have a fairy tail ending.

And all this time i wasn't sure if i did or didn't love Ash at first i though i hated him. But he knew from the beginning that this was love, not hate.

~ THE END ~

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