Baekhyun The Babysitter// Exo

#4: I'm Sorry

It was around 9am I finally decided to wake up although I was in bed for 13 hours I only slept around 8hours because of waking up and thinking and trying to sleep again. I do normally only sleep 8 hours that's the amount I need to make it through the day without almost falling asleep. There was always coffee but when I drink coffee I'd feel and get sick but I loved the taste and smell of it. I drank on rare occasions when I'm going to be at home with no plans for a day so I can drink and then get sick after a few hours without being worried about anyone being there to see hear or watch. Most of that came from the bottom so it's not as bad as tasting it again.

I got up and got dressed as usual I wore black leggings and a baggy shirt. I never wear something I'm uncomfortable in that includes dresses. I only put one on at special occasions like dances or formal "parties" even if they aren't actually a party more like business meetings only with a dress and champagne or for underage people like me fizzy apple juice.

I went down stairs and looked around to see if Baekhyun was awake. I found a note that read "Went to get rest of my stuff -Baek"

Thank God I wanted to eat in peace before I start crying again I need my energy to start crying again. I'm surprised I didn't loose 10pounds last night.

I fixed myself some orange juice eggs bacon and pancakes with powdered sugar I'm not much of a syrup fan, I mean I'll eat it but it nothing compared to my powdered sugar.

Like always it was delicious I saved some for Baekhyun just in case he hasn't eaten. I devoured mine before he got home, and set his in the fridge so it didn't go bad.  I hope he already ate I want to eat that later today that way I don't need to make lunch.

I sat on the couch still a little tired from last night and turned some cartoons on. Yes although I'm 19 I still go to Disney channel and Nick all the time. I ended up falling asleep to a rerun of iCarly. It was about another hour until I woke up to the door slamming open. I grabbed a handy pillow and threw it screaming "Who the hell are you get out I have a gun" Which was not true I'm to afraid to touch a gun I'm scared it might randomly go off once I touch it so I tend to stay the hell away.

"Oh, I wouldnt think The Ellie Rhoades would have a gun now" Baekhyuns eyesbrows rose and head tilting as usual to see my face.

"Its just you I thought you were some robber"

"Just me, ouch that hurts." He held his heart and scrunch his face sarcastically. "Are you gonna sit there or help me, bring my stuff in. I also brought you some food you favorite eggs bacon and pancakes with powdered sugar not syrup, and OJ. Can't forget that grab it after we get everything put in my room k."

I was walking to my care I kinda blushed since he still remembered. "Actually Baek I made that this morning, I left some for you to eatas well. Thanks for remembering"

"What was that last part Ellie I couldn't hear you?"

"Oh it was nothing I was just talking."

"Okay anyway since we both already ate, let's save this for lunch"

Like I thought we are are still the same people.

We finished packing his stuff in his room.

"Hey, let's talk while we put this stuff away... I mean if you want to help I know stuff like this helped you talk about things you didn't really want to or things that made you sad. I also know it helps you not cry. I.... I mean well I don't know if this is all the things you still like I'm just going off memory I thi-"

"Baek it does still help and I still do love eggs bacon oj and powdered sugar pancakes. I haven't changed much."

I started to unpack his stuff. "Baek I still have a lot of questions for you and a lot to say. But you go first tell me why, why you did what you did and why you took so much time to come back and why you did just now come back."

"Ellie, I want to say that the day it happened I was really weak, the girl was my ex and it was after our fight about you know having sex. I told her that you were my girlfriend before we started but she didn't care all she wanted was sex, and well me to be hers again. But I told her no until I gave in, after we broke up I told her to leave and that what we did will never happen again.... I kinda went numb and emotionless for days then I went to drinking you away which didn't work. I stopped cleaned up and started my life again, I felt like I moved on but never truly did. I never had contact with girls or boys after my friends of course worried about me texted called but I cut everyone out. Worked ate slept. I felt worthless for what I did to you I couldn't even look at girls or think about them it makes me sick to my stomach when its someone other then you. I never did anything else with anyone. I never got over you. I never stopped loving you Ellie.... I know I was just like your dad that day. I'm sorry."

I started to cry I got up and hugged him "You answer all my questions" I cried more as he was shocked by the affection I had given to him. He soon relaxed under me and embraced me into a hug.