Baekhyun The Babysitter// Exo

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As you know by now my last chapter had abuse in it.

I DO NOT take child abuse lightly to tell you the truth it was my own story.

I want to say I did go through many cases about him abusing and molesting me. However he was never put to jail where he belongs. Not only did he do all those things to me he did way more. If you wonder why he never got caught was because I as a child was to scared to do anything, as well as my mom she also was abused not nearly as bad as me. He also did a cruel punishment to my older sister which was not letting her sleep on her bed without pillows or blankets during winter. As for my middle sister he would treat her like a normal kid with normal punishments.

My parents obviously got a divorce after many years. The bad thing was I had visitation with him that's when things got worse. He molsted me even more as well as hit me. He hit me in places people weren't able to see so he never got caught, and when he did hit me places people could see police were called I told then the truth but nothing ever happened.

The police/ DHS would say the bruises weren't bad enough or anything that would not make him go to jail. I heard about everything. I finally came to an age where I left his house and never planned to come back until he tried to kidnap me saying he wanted visitation he left a lot of marks on my arms. I called the police and they came back saying you have to have visitation with him and forced me to go without a supervised visitation. That lasted about a week. I never showed my face again. And I hope I will never see his again.

He now lives with his one step kid, one who is underage moved out of the house because of him and the other was treated just fine. I knew them of course they were good kids the one who moved out is a year older then me  and the one who stayed was a year younger. The mom was ok with everything she wasn't smart enough to think about her kids but enough to marry the man if you could call him that.

A lot of the things he did to me will stay in my head forever. I will never forgive him for what he has done to me as he did ever since I was little. He took my childhood away from me leaving me with many scars inside and out. I worked through many of my problems. I went to a counselor and still do, I was put on many medications, for my emotions. They diagnosed me with severe depression and anxiety and many social illnesses. I am now off the medication after a year of hard work. A year was not a lot but with him out of my life it seemed way easier. I had many people to help me strive to where I am today. Of course I still feel my sadness and all emotions come back every now and then. I have things that trigger me never anything too specific mostly if people touch my stamache and the sides or start yelling even if it's happy yelling. My panic attacks become smaller with time.  Now to the point where If someone touches my stomached I don't cry just a little panic and I can go back but still self conscious. And if someone is yelling happy I don't get to scared but if it's yelling mad or sad or not good yelling I still cry.

I fight my disorders everyday, I hope that one day I will be free of them. I still want the memories so nothing like this will ever happen again, even if it's almost impossible, I will try to change it.

I hope that anyone who is going through what I did or did has the chance to speak up once you do you might find a little freedom. Although DHS and the police suck at abuse cases. I hope you find happiness.

Asking for help is the first step. Don't be afraid to take it.

If you need someone to talk or anything to I'm always here.