lifesick ; homin

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changmin again finds himself lost in his thoughts, instead of eating that horrible food he's been forced to eat, he was thinking how idiotic his act was.

" here, sit here, " changmin was dumbfounded. he was that worried that the other might be thinking he was deaf or just a pure idiot.

" urh, - i think the nurse is calling me, " changmin hesitated but, he still can't believe what came out of his mouth. he immediately ran out from the other's room.

" i'm an idiot, " changmin said to himself. it's been a day of him staying in his ward, alone. of course the nurse did came to his room every hour. but he was dead, dead ass bored.

maybe he should go take a walk or something. but he was afraid that he would bump into the other.

or would the man he saw the other day still in there, or he would already discharged because he was seems totally fine the other day.

he slowly walks out of his ward, walking towards nowhere. and luckily, he found his new hideout, a garden which has tons of flowers grow around him.

he admits that the view was picturesque, how he loves the slightly bright sun shines behind the clouds on the sky, the flowers-- especially sunflowers that he notices the most.

he loves it, so much he can't even explain the feel he loves the most when the air playfully breezes to his soft hanging bangs. but deep down into his heart, he feels kind of sad.

he walks to a hidden part of the garden which has a bench. he stares at every inch of the flowers around him, he doesn't like flowers, in fact he hated him. but that moment, the soft air breezes through him with a hint of the flowers scent around him, he was admiring all of it.

he was thinking how long he can enjoy that moment at least before he leaves, to kill himself. he leans against the window that he just acknowledges was there, but what does he care. he wants to cry at that moment, he wonders why, but he wants to let out of his feelings burden inside him.

he slowly sigh before looking up to the sky that covered with fluffy looking clouds. he closes his eyes, sniffing the air but this time, the air that he sniffed has the mix of the cinnamon and vanilla instead of just the scent of flowers,

" familiar smell, "

he thought slowly before he even feel a soft breathing behind him. it was the beautiful creature again.

this time the view was even scenic, the visuals of the other above him, face with a smile never leaves, the soft air breezes, making the other's hair part into two, leaving his forehead exposed-- making changmin adores his true perfection, without a flaw.

' an angel ? " Changmin slowly whispers, but fortunately the other didn't manage to catch his words.

" hi " the other smiles before leaning his arm against the window, making changmin sits up straight, feeling strange since the stranger was sitting close to him.

suddenly , changmin felt the breathing was even closer to him, it was the stranger, leaning out from the window which was being the wall for them.

clearly, the other was glancing over changmin's bandaged wrists.

" tell me, how does that happen ? " the other smiles, of course changmin loves how his hair being parted to the side a bit, exposing his forehead.

" wh-why would you want to know ? " changmin starts to get annoyed by how pathetic he sounds like.

" i really would like to know about you. i mean, who doesn't, " the other guy chuckles, this time he cranes his neck and stare at the flowers for a while before his eyes shifts back of to changmin.

" i tried to kill myself, " changmin said being casual, not knowing a reason he shouldn't be.

that guy was still wearing a smile on his face, but this time warmer, assuring but he can feel, that the smile was forced on.

" and why is that ? "

" don't you think that question is too personal for me to answer to a stranger ? " changmin straighten his back, eyes meeting the stranger's eyes.

" then let make this clear, " the other pauses before reaching his hand out from the window,

" i'm yunho, jung yunho, " he smiles again, this time changmin knew it wasn't fake. changmin wouldn't want to lie, but he already know the other name the other day.

" and i'm dying "

the other adds, making changmin gasps,

🌻♡⛅

changmin was absurdly silenced by the other unexpected respond. now he doesn't even know how to respond.

he sits there, speechless while staring weirdly at the other's beautiful face before looking away, thinking for an answer.

" wh-why do you say that ? " changmin finally finds an answer, returning his face back to the other face which was close to his.

" you will know it later, but tell me, what is your name stranger ? " the other reaches out next to changmin's head, grabbing a flower before sniffing onto them carefully.

" shim changmin, " changmin softly replies, earning a hum from the other.

" you know what, changmin, you're the prettiest flower that i've ever seen "
the other spoke, making changmin body shudders from shock, but his nose was slightly flushed, probably loving the compliment that the stranger gave.

the wind blows , being the noise in that awkward silence, wrong, more like a moment for both of them to adore each other's faces.

the sudden shock of changmin's body, makes him realize everything and he promptly looked down, avoiding eye contact with all he might.

" so why did you do that ? "

" do what ? " changmin wasn't lying, he wasn't sure what was the other trying to imply.

" you know, i'm sure you tried to kill yourself for a reason, right ? and why is that ? "

" i don't even know,, " changmin was prudent with his answers, he answers every question short, and simple.

of course, he finds it weird for two men for being too close in the garden despite its their first meet.

" i'm sorry but shouldn't you appreciate your life better, like-"

changmin gets up, he always get sick when people doesn't get why he's so depressed with his life.

changmin walk slowly leaving the man. the man was probably taken aback with changmin sudden leaving, he speaks out,

" where are you going ? "

" despite this is our first meet, you're being so judgemental. how do you expect me to stay ? "

changmin leaves the man with heavy heart because to be honest he would love to stay with that man a little longer.