lifesick ; homin

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" then, can i call you beautiful, too ?"

is what yunho wanted to say, but he didn't. instead both of them were in a total silence, letting the warm air around them fill their silence.

" are we friends, now ?" changmin slowly asks, his voice is not normally like this.

" i don't know, maybe. if you want to " yunho replies, brushing his own hair slightly due to the nervousness.

" i would love to... but can i ? "

" what kind of question is that ? of course you can ! " yunho warmly smiles at the other's glowy eyes.

changmin smiles, feeling slightly agitated by the other's company. he loves this, this relationship of him and yunho. perhaps, they're already friends, what would get worse right ?

" look, changminnie. let's know each better, " yunho speaks out. letting his hand casually places on changmin's shoulders.

while the younger can only widens his eyes by the sudden skinship. it's not that he hates it, but he never done such thing with his friends. maybe, it's different with yunho.

" so, tell me more about yourself, " yunho adds as he can feel the stiff body of the other softens for his touch.

" i work as an accountant.. " changmin speaks lowly. he just feels insecure with his boring life.

" my life is not that interesting though, so.. " changmin shifts his eyes down to his hands. it's normal to feel nervous when talking to a friend right ?

" then, tell me how's that happened, " yunho's eyes rolled down to changmin's scar on his right wrist.

" i told you i tried to kill myself, i think. " changmin shoulders off yunho's hand on his shoulder. he feels slightly uncomfortable talking about his wrists, perhaps he was sensitive about it.

yunho can only mouthes an ' o '. he doesn't want the other feels slightl-

yunho stopped as he can't held his coughs inside his chest anymore. the feeling he had earlier came rushing back to attack him.

he softly coughs, before he can't stop coughing again.

" yunho ? yunho- ssi ?!" changmin starts to panic when he saw yunho's face getting paler than usual. his eyes were letting some tears.

the hand that used to lean against changmin's shoulder were brought up to his mouth. he covers his mouth to afraid some saliva or more likely red liquid pouring out from his mouth.

" yunho ? goddamit ! should i call the nurse ? " changmin starts to get up from yunho's bed, searching for an emergency button that should be aroun-

" it's okay, changmin " yunho scoffes, searching for his handkerchief. he softly wipes the blood from his mouth onto the handkerchief.

yunho stops and stares at the frightened deer infront of him. he smiles widely, eyes were nearly closed as eyesmiles formed around his eyes.

" i'm okay now , see ? " yunho tries to assure the other by turning around a little bit.

changmin's face that was crumpled with fear and anxiousness turns into a frown– more likely a pout.

" you scared a crap out of me, " he softly complains, walking towards the window pane next to yunho's bed.

" look who's talking, you literally scared a little shit out of me when you were cutting yourself the other day. "
yunho's comeback successfully make changmin chuckles.

changmin softly glares the other. his eyes shifts up to the other who was staring at him.

" are you used to this ? i mean- why do you look so calm eventhough you just coughed like crazy earlier ? " changmin asks, slightly playing with the window blinds.

" actually, it's not like i didn't know that i was dying, anyway. so i'm actually ready anytime. " yunho said with a smile.

it's weird when yunho can actually bare with the fact that he's actually dying, changmin thought.

" ironically, i really want to live, i want to continue my life, "

changmin looks up to the voice who was just talking and paused.

he continues,

" while you're here, waiting the right time before you kill yourself ," yunho looks out to the window.

the smile that used to be on his face seems to disappear and turns into a little frown.

changmin looks down drastically, feeling guilty all of the sudden.

" i suppose i am right then, " yunho speaks out before changmin notices a trail of tear falling down onto his cheeks.

" i'm so sorry, i don't know why i always get so emotional around newcomers  " yunho confesses, wiping his tears off with his fingers.

they both didn't say anything, instead changmin stares at yunho's  face that was beautiful after crying.

changmin tries to casually put his hand on the other's but the other took his hand and intertwine with it.

the action that used to be the act of comforting yunho backfired changmin as he turns red as tomato by the other's cold—but in a good way hand.

they both decided to stare at the sun setting through the window pane.

" it's beautiful " changmin slowly exclaims, staring at yunho's face before look down to their hands again.

" tell me, are you talking about the sun set ? because the only beautiful thing i can see now, is you. " yunho slips his words out of his mouth. gaining a soft gasp from the other.

" i think i have to go now, " changmin stands up as it's already dark. still not letting go of yunho's hand.

yunho smiles, finally lets his hand go before looking at changmin who was flustered.

" i guess, good evening, yunho-ssi. it was nice meeting you " changmin  murmurs under his breath before turning his back towards the door.

" changminnie, "

changmin abruptly turns his head , looking at the figure who was sitting on the bed before slightly smiles.

" when are you going to call me 'hyung' ?" yunho asks, earning an unexpected reaction from the other.

even though it was dark, yunho can clearly see the other's white face turns into red- pinkish colour.

" good evening, yunho-hyung, " yunho heard changmin said before the other disappears.

a/n ; it took me forever to update this crappy shit since i'm so busy with schools and other stuffs, but pls enjoy !