lifesick ; homin

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a/n : I'm pretty sure this soft pic of changmin will bless your day ♡( i swear- his new hair is giving the uwu vibes all over the place, may God bless whoever styles his hair 

now, it is clear enough to changmin that he's in love with yunho. after a several weeks knowing the other, he founds himself helplessly in love with a straight man like yunho.

it kills changmin when he actually founds out that he is interested in men in such an old age. no wonder he was pressuring himself on getting a girlfriend when he's actually has the hots towards men.

he still can't believe it. maybe it's because of the appearance of yunho in his life makes him realizes his true sexuality. or maybe he was just confused.

maybe, he is confused with his sexuality, he can't be gay all of the sudden, right ? it's maybe because of the sudden shock of meeting yunho rightly after he tried to commit suicide.

it can be.

it's impossible to fall in love with a man you just met for several weeks right ?

again, changmin is in denial. he's literally told siwon that he's in love with someone-yunho.

" maybe i shouldn't be seeing him, again. " changmin spoke to himself.

lately, changmin founds himself to be talking to himself quite a lot.

changmin stares at the figure who was casually laying on a couch bot so far from his bed. how long has siwon been staying in his room ?

half of changmin's delusional self wants to go to yunho's room and confesses how he feels towards the older, while his realistic self reminds him on how the other loves his girlfriend dearly.

it makes changmin wonder, why on earth, he has experience his first love-on yunho ?

why ?

a/n : this is actually a short chapter on changmin's in denial, but anyway enjoy bubs !