One-chapter stories

Apologies.

Hey!! It's been a while since I've published something here. And I'm sorry for that. I know that only my friends would read these, but let me just explain.

Something 'terrible' happened a year and a half ago. I lost all of my friends in one day because of bpd. I did not know how to deal with it, or what the triggers for my splitting were. I'm not gonna explain what exactly happened but basically, lots of people called me an abuser for.. nothing, really. And that fucked me up.
I stopped writing. Lyrics, stories, even about my own life, something that I'd do 24/7. I was so caught up in those horrible feelings that I just couldn't bring myself to write anything.
And I still can't, these horrible feelings feel still the exact same way as they felt a year and a half ago. I don't think I'll ever write again (goodbye dream to become a writer). And I'm sorry for that, I guess. Writing used to be the most important coping mechanism for me. And now that I don't have it anymore I've turned to more harmful things. (Yes I am getting help for it, don't worry). I just want to say that I think this is goodbye? I don't know. I only had like, 5 readers but you know. Still sad. I won't delete my account or my stories, I just won't publish anything anymore.

Bye,
xa