The Thug Series : Lies And Perfection

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×Shardae Point Of View×

When My Auntie And Uncle Finally Stopped Lecturing Us I Got To Go Home. It Was Around 9:30. The Drive Home Was Real Quiet. Tre Kept Glancing At Me Out The Corner Of His Eye But Looked Away Quickly When I Looked At Him. Tre'Shawn Was Sleep. Thank God He Sleeps Through The Night Peacefully Now...Sometimes.

We Pulled Up To The House And Tre Parked The Car In Our Four Car Garage. I Turned The Garage Lights On Using My Phone And Then Got Shawn Out His Car Seat. Tre Grabbed His Diaper Bag And We Went Into The House. After Laying Our Baby Down I Went To My Room. Tre Was On The Roof Smoking A Blunt. He Looked Like He Was Thinking. I Didn't Want To Disturb Him. So I Headed To The Shower.

I Hate When He Got Like This. Everytime He Catched Himself Thinking About Something Serious Like His Wrongs...He Goes Out And Let Girls Give Him Head Or Kiss Up On Him.I Don't Know Why But I Keep Having This Hope That He'll Realize What He Has Is Good. He Makes Me Feel Like I'm Not Good Enough. Like I Will Never Meet Up To What He Wants In A Woman. I Try To Tell Myself That Its Not Me Its Just That He's Fcked Up. Then When He Cheats The Thoughts Fill My Head Again. I'm Just Waiting On Him To Come Tell Me He's Leaving Now. For The Night Or Forever? Both Actually.

I Had My Eyes Closed Until I Felt Cold Air And Heard The Shower Door Open. Tre Stepped In Which Surprised Me. We Haven't Took A Shower Together Since The Second Time He Cheated.Which Was Two Months After Tre Was Born. Im Sexually Fustrated And The Look He Was Giving Me Was Not Helping. I Was Turning Around When He Grabbed Me Roughly And Picked Me Up Causing My Legs To Wrap Around His Waist. I Had A Look Of Shock On My Face And He Smirked.

"I Love You Shardae"He Said Staring Deep Into My Eyes.

"I Luh Ahhhh ---"I Moaned As He Slid All 10in Inside Me.

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"You Know I Love You Right?"Tre Asked As We Layed In Bed Ass Naked.

I Needed That. It Was Now Going On 1:40am.

Before I Could Answer He Kept Talking.

"I Know Ive Done You Wrong. And I Know I Don't Deserve A Good Loyal Woman Like You. I Wouldnt Be Surprised If You Packed Up And Left Me Tmrw.....

...I Wanna Get Everything Out And On The Table So We Can Move Forward. I Wanna Do Right By You. I Would Hate To Lose You And My Son...It Would Break My Heart.

Shardae All I Need Is One More Chance...One More. I Promise Ill Do Right By You." I Turned To Face Him And Looked Into His Eyes.

"We Should Just Take Things Slow Tre. But I Do Want To Know Everything So We Can Move On. I Just Don't Know What Happen. Its Like When I Got Pregnant Everything Changed... Why W----"

"It Wasn't Because Of The Baby. I Just...Took You For Granite...I Didn't Want To Say No To Them Girls. I Didnt Think About You Or Shawn. I Didn't Think About Your Feelings. I Just Saw Pussy And Went In. But I Dont Want To Anymore. I Wanna Change. I Wanna Be A Better Me For You And My Kid. I Just Need You To Hang In There With Me. I Need You Shardae. I Need To Know That You Wont Leave. Promise Me You Wont Leave.  Please Don't Leave."He Says I Look At Him.

"Tell Me Everything... Then Ill See About Me Not Leaving. He Sighed And We Both Sat Up And Looked And Eachother In The Eyes.

"Well..." And He Began To Tell Me Everything. I Don't Know How I'm Gonna Take This.

×Tre Point Of View×

"Ok Umm.  Where Do I Start?" I Was Nervous As Hell. She Had A Straight Face And Was Looking Straight Into My Eyes.

"The Beginning... From The First Time You Cheated To Now"She Said

"Uhhhh... Aight...

The First Time I Cheated Was When We Fought And You Kicked Me Out. I Came Back With Hickies From CC. Me And Her Kept Contact But You Didnt Know Cause I Just Told You I Went To A Strip Club. Which I Did... She Was One Of The Dancers." I Told Her

She Kept A Straight Face But She Was Playing With Her Trigger Finger. "Umm Yo---"

"Keep Going"She Cut Me Off

"Well.. Ok The Second Time Was When I Stormed Out Of The House And I Went To Ole Girl Shaina Spot. She Gave Me Head. And The Last Recent Time Was When I Thought You Was Cheatin And I Just Had Alot Of Shit On My Mind... I Fcked CC A Second Time."

"Do You See Why I Distance Myself From You Now?"Shardae Asked

"You Cheat. You Lie. You Dont Care --"

"No. No I---"

"Lemme Finish Tre.... You Dont Care About My Feelings Or Our Future. You Dont Care About What You Putting This Family Through... Its Sad But The Only Thing Thats Keeping Me Here Is Tre'Shawn. I Cant Trust You. I Think...I Think That We Should Break Up... CoParent And Get Ourselves Together Before We Try To Work On An Us. I Love You But We Both Got Our Demons Tre. You Will Always Be My First Love And I Will Always Love You.  But This Aint What We Need Right Now."She Said

I Could Only Listen.  I Was Hurt, Angry,Mad,And,Sad.  But Not At Her. At Myself Because I Caused This. I Did This And I Cant Believe It. I Didnt Think She Would Leave. Ever. She Could Leave With My Son. She Could Find Somebody Else. She Could Fall In Love Again. With Somebody Else. FUCK!!!!

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I Focus My Attention On Her As She Packs Herself An OverNight Bag. She's Beautiful.  Inside And Out.

I Can't Believe I Took Her My Son And Her Love For Me For Granted.

I Snap Out Of My Thoughts When She Puts Something In My Hand. Its The Promise Ring I Gave To Her On Her 19th Birthday.

"Why You Givin This Back To Me?"I Ask Looking Up Into Her Eyes

"It Means Nothing If The Promises Were Broken. "She Replies.

I Look Down At The Ring And Close My Hand. A Tear Falls From My Eye.

Shardae Rose My Head Up And Looked Into My Eyes Before Kissing My Lips.

"No Matter What Happens I Will Always Love You. I Love You." She Stressed

"Forever?" I Asked As A Few More Tears Slipped

"Forever!"She Said Before Kissing Me Again She Pulled Away But Before She Could Get To Far I Grabbed The Back Of Her Neck And Kissed Her With Everything I Had. She Kissed Me Back With Just As Much Passion. When We Lost Breath We Broke The Kissed And Put Our Foreheads Together.

"I Love You "I Told Her For The First Time In A Couple Weeks.

"I Know"She Said Then Grabbed Her Bag Before Leaving What Use To Be Our House.

I Just Lost The Best Thing Ive Ever Had.

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