The Thug Series : Lies And Perfection

~16~

xSha'Niya Point Of Viewx

"Yall Think They'll Make It?" I Asked My Sisters Still Looking At The Ocean.

"Yes. They Have Too. Its Not Like They Have Nothing To Come Back To." Nae Told Us

"Our Own Parents Left Us, We Were Beat By Our Last Boyfriends, And Our Men Are Fighting---"

"For Yall. And Them Babies. And Your Parents Didnt Leave Yall. They Passed Away. What Y'all Little Punk Ass Exes Did Was Wrong...So Is What Ray Did. But That's All In The Past. Y'all Now Have Babies To Take Care Of. Dont Let This War Tear Y'all Down. I Know They Left Something For Yall. Did Yall Pack Them?" Tina Said Cutting Me Off

"Yes," Me And Nae Answered.

"Shardae?" She Looked At Us And Rolled Her Eyes.

"I'm Going To Bed. Night." With That She Walked Off. I Don't Know Why She Always Has To Be Mad At The World When We All Have To Go Through The Same Thing. She Needs To Get A Grip.

"We'll Talk Tomorrow. Yall Gon Head Get Some Rest, I Know Your Tired. We Gotta Busy Day Ahead Of Us. You Need All The Rest You Can Get. Ill Talk To Shardae. Good Night Girls." Aunt Tina Said Before Getting Up And Going Back Into The House. Me And Nae Followed Suit After Saying Good Night To One Another. 

        Maybe One Day We Will Be Able To Live Peacefully. Without Having To Deal With The Game. Who Am I Kidding! Unfortunately. That's Just A Fantasy. We Gon Always Have To Deal With The Game. I Went Up To My Room And Checked On The Twins And Jer'Maine. They Were All Asleep. I Took A 15 Minute Shower, And Got Me A Snack: Strawberries And Whipped Cream. I Layed In The Bed And Clicked On The Tv.

"Mommy?" I Turned My Head Towards The Door To See Lil~Niya

"What You Doing Up Boo, Come Here." She Made Her Way Into My Room Closing The Door Behind Her. Once I Had Got Her Up Onto The Bed And Looking At Me, I Noticed She Was Crying.

"Niya Baby What's Wrong?"

"I Miss Daddy And I Scared." She Told Me. I Held And Talked To Her For Awhile. She Had Almost All Off My Whipped Cream Covered Strawberries And She Had Stopped Crying.

"Mommy I Slweepy." She Laid Next To Me And I Rubbed Her Back Until I Heard Her Light Breathing. 

        I Dont Know When I Fell Asleep But When I Woke Up And Managed To Open My Eyes. Aniyah Was Smiling At Me And Trinity Was Holding A Smiling Jer'Maine Also Smiling Herself. I Giggled.

"How Are My Babies Doing, And Is That Food I Smell?" 

" Good Morning Mama!" They All Said. Trinity Calling Me Mama For The First Time Replayed In My Head As I Took Jer'Maine. He Kissed My Cheek And Gave Me A Goofy Smile. I Looked At Him And Saw The Whipped Cream On His Mouth. I Laughed Out Loud.

"YUMMY!" This Boy Is Loud For No Reason.

"I Bet It Is. Let Mommy Get Up And I'll Be Downstairs In A Minute Okay Babies?" They Nodded And Walked Out Of The Room. They Aint Fooling Nobody, I Heard Them Run. I Went To My Bathroom And Hopped In The Shower. Brushing My Teeth While In There. I Finished What I Had To Do And Got Out. I Lotioned Then Put On My Undergarments. I Went To My Closet And Put On My White Jeggings, My Dark Gray Half Sweater Shirt And My Gray And White Adidas Samoas. I Put My Hair Down And Ran A Flat Iron Through It. I Sprayed Some Perfume And Made My Way Downstairs After Puuting On My Dark Gray Beanie With NIYA Written In White.

"Well Look At You Looking The Way You Lookin!" Sha'Nae Said As I Eased My Way Into A Seat Putting A Couple Pieces Of Bacon On My Plate.

"You Look Cute," Shardae Said Before Feeding Tre'Shawn Some Grits.

"Thank-You. You Too." She Had On Some Black High-Waisted Jeans And A Black Off The Shoulder Cropped Sweater Shirt That Had BabyGirl Written Across The Chest In White, Paired w/ Some Black And White Jordans. Her Hair Was In A High Ponytail. Nae Had On Some Black Jeans, A Cute Green Crop Top That Said Promise In White. She Paired Her Outfit With Her Green And White Nikes. We All Only Had On A Touch Of LipGloss And Some Big Hoops Earrings. All The Kids Were Eating And Talking. I Didn't See Tino Nor Kevin.

"Auntie Where's Kevin And Tino?" I Asked.

"They Went To The Store, They Should Be Back Any Minute Now." She Said While Placing Some Hot Scrambled Eggs On My Plate. I Said Nothing And Left The Conversation Alone, Focusing On My Plate Of Food. Minutest Later I Was Done And Full. I Noticed My Kids Were Still In Their Pajamas.

"Come On Niya, Beautii, JJ. Bath Time," I Said. They Got Up From Their Seats And Headed Up The Stairs. I Bathed Them All And Got Them Dressed. I Also Slipped On The Gifts Tre'Maine Got Them. I Still Haven't Read The Letter. I Sent All My Babies Downstairs And Went To My Room Closing The Door Behind Me. I Got The Letter From In Between My Mattress And Read It.

           Baby,

I Miss You Already. This Isn't The End Of Us. I Promise You That. I Want You To Hold It Down For Me In Cali. I Want You To Put The Girls In School And Make Sure They Keep Their Heads On Straight. Make Sure JJ Don't Be No Tittie Baby Either Women. I Don't Know When I'll See You Or My Babies Again. It Pains Me To Say This But Don't Wait For Me. Live Your Life. Stay In College. Get A Career. Just Don't Put Your Life On Hold For Me. I'm Sorry For Getting You Involved In This Crazy Ass Life I Live. I'm Sorry For Not Coming Back Sooner. I'm Sorry For Putting Stress On You. Baby I'm Sorry. I'm Not Sorry For Loving You Though. Or Leaving You And Putting My Life At Risk To Keep You And Our Babies Safe. I Love You Sha'Niya. Believe It When I Say That This Ain't The End Though. Believe Me When I Say Im Your Ride Or Die. Ima Ride For You And My Kids Til Caskets Drop Baby. ...Give My Babies Their Letters Too. You Know When Their Of Age... Fuck . Look I Can't Make You Cry No More Than You Want To So. I Love You Babygirl. Remember That. I Love You!

                                                                                                                                                        Tre'Maine       

He Must Not Know The Real Me. Fuck He Think This Is. I'm Riding Too. I Ain't Going No Where. I'm Waiting. 

x Tre'Maine Point Of View x

"Get Out My Face Boy," Kieth Said To Me. I Know I Was Kinda Pushing My Luck But I Stepped Up In His Face.

"You Not Finna Kill Niesha."

"Why Not. Nigga! Say WHO? That Bitch Ain't Done Shit But Fuck You And Them Girls Over." I Know Where He Coming From But Damn. This Is My Kids Biological Mother And Their Bound To Find Out In Time. I Don't Know What To Do.

"She Asked For This Shit Man! She Want What's Best For Her Kids. Being Killed Is Her Way Of Making Sure They Get What's Best For Them. She Asked For It. Them Kids Ain't Even 'Gon Remember Her Dawg. I'm Killin Her. Point Blank." He Finished And Got His Gun Before Walking Away.

"And Pain?" I Turned Toward Him

"If You Ever In Your Life Get Some Nuts And Punch Me Again. I'll Fuck You Up."  

Then There Was One And His Guns.

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