The Thug Series : Lies And Perfection

~17~

x Shardae Point Of View x

        Shardae,

I Know Your Angry. I Can Feel It. To Be Honest I Wish You Never Had To Read This. I Wish I Was Still There Telling You That Everything's Gonna Be Okay And Holding You. But I Can't. So You Need To Stop Being Angry At Everyone. This Isn't Anyone's Fault. This Is Your Life And You Just Gon Have To Live It. Do What You Have To Do For You. Your My Sweet Little Baby Star. Im Watching Over You. Kisses And Hugs.

                                                                                                                                                                              -Ma

It's Like She Knows Everything. Truth Is. I'm Not Even Mad. I Knew This Was Coming. I'm Just Channeling All My Emotions And Anger Is The Best One Emotion I'm Good At Showing And Controlling. I Cry Every Night. I Am So Glad My Room Walls Are Sound Proof. Maybe I Should Apologize. Yea. I Should. All These Letters And Cards Got Me In My Feelings. Hell Might As Well. It's What Mama Would Want. 

        I Love You BabyGirl! - <3 Tre <3

Tre Got Me A Ring. He Said In The Note It Was A Promise Ring That Was Saying He Promises He Will Come Back. It's Beautiful. I Love Tre. Though I Can't Stand His Lies And The Cheating. I Love Him. My Son Loves Him And He Deserves Two Parents. My Baby Deserves Two Strong Parents That Are Made For Each Other. Two Happy Parents. I Am Happy. We're Just A Beautiful Imperfect Perfection. 

After I Finished My Going Through The Box My Mama And Daddy Left Me And Putting My Flowers In A Vase Filled With Water. I Got Tre Bathed And Dressed. I Then Went To Look For Sha'Niya. Kitchen. Nope. Living Room. Nope. Fuck It I'm Going To Just Call Her. This House Is To Damn Big. 

"Hello?" She Answered.

"Wassup Where You At?"

"In The Den."

"Im Finna Come Talk To You." I Told Her.

"Aight."

I Hung Up And Walked To The Den. The Twins Were Watching Barbie And Jer'Maine Had His Head On Niya's Chest. He Was Trying His Hardest To Go To Sleep With All The Noise In The Room.

"You Wanna Go Somewhere?" I Asked Niya.

"I Do Mommy!" The Twins Said Excitedly.

"Daddy!" Jer'Maine Yelled.

"Da-" And There They Were. All On The Tv Screen Replacing Barbie's Show. I Stood Shocked. 

"Daddy When You Come Home To Us? Mommy Miss You!" Trinity Said.

"You Don't Miss Daddy?" Tre'Maine Asked Acting Hurt.

"Yessssss!" The Twins Said Then Fell Out Into A Fit Of Giggles. I Didn't Say Anything. Just Looked At Niya. Then My Cellphone Rang.

"Hello?" I Answered

"Your Here?"

Come To The Den."  I Looked At The Magical TV Screen.

"You And Tina," I Told Her.

I Hung Up. Tre'Maine Continued To Talk To The Twins. Jer'Maine Stood Waving At The Screen. He Said Words He Could Pronounce. It Was Just Too Cute. I Looked Into The Screen At Tre And He Caught My Gaze. We Held Eye Contact For A While. Tre'Shawn Looked At Me And Pointed At The Screen Then My Lips.