Sober - {Jemi}

Lost

DEMI POV: I knew that this was going to happen from the moment Nick started insinuating me, I knew that things with Joe would be too ruined and more now that he had learned this way, without having said anything ... I lost him I knew it at that moment.

Nick: hey babe, don't worry ... he'll understand (he said and tried to kiss me but I walked away)

Demi: I don't give a shit Nicholas! Joe is my best friend too and I can't lose him for this

Nick: this? So you call what we have?

Demi: I don't want to start with the fights please

Nick: Okay, don't start them ... let's just break right now if you care more about my brother and his stupid heart, than our relationship

Demi: I never said that

Nick: but you feel that way ... come on, Joe is your weakness, isn't it? always was, go with him, he will only use you as he always does when he has the chance ... leave me alone, but don't regret losing the one who really loves you for your heart

Demi: Nick, fuck! I don't want that ... I love you, do you understand? it's just that I don't want to lose friendship with your brother, not now
Nick: If you love me, do not go after him ... he's already big enough for you to do it

Demi: but-

Nick: it's easy, you just have to decide if you stay with the person you say you love, or if you go with the stupid person you want to have as a friend always

Demi: don't do this please (I asked with teary eyes) I love you, yes? but Joe was always very important to me

Nick: if you cross that door, all Demi is finished ... you know what you have to do (he told me the angry)

Demi: it's your brother, why are you like that?

Nick: don't you understand? you're always going to prefer him ... if you go after him, he's going to tell you a couple of lies and he'll want to have sex with you, you'll stay with him because it's your lifelong love, it's not me (he said with tears in his eyes and fear in his voice, so I kissed him deeply)

Demi: I love you Nick, I don't love your brother, I just need friendship and understanding from him

Nick: go if you want, but promise me that you will not stop loving me when he tells you some nice things to decorate that he wants to fuck you

Demi: I promise you ... you're the one I love Nick

Nick: just me? or do I share my position? (I looked towards the ground unable to answer)

Demi: I'm going to talk to your brother

Nick: tell him I want to talk to him later (I nodded and left that bus to go to Phil's ... in the short way I just
I could think about the confusion in my head, I really wanted Nick, but ... I don't love Joe? If I don't love him, why does this situation hurt so much? ... I love Joe? If I love him, why did I stop being interested in him? I knocked on the door of the other bus and Phil opened me after a few minutes with his newly raised eyes)

Phil: Demi, did something happen?

Demi: no, I'm sorry to wake you up ... I'm here to talk to Joe

Phil: I think he's sleeping already

Demi: Do you mind if I enter a few minutes?

Phil: Of course not (I went in and he went to sleep again, I walked to the bunk beds and I stood next to the one that had everything perfectly closed.)

Demi: please (I silently prayed to God and opened to see a Joe that I thought was asleep, there was a lot of room in the bunk so I got into his and closed everything again)

Joe: You still don't learn to be very quiet right? (I winced) I'm sorry to scare you

Demi: no no, don't worry ... can we talk Joe?

Joe: I don't have too much desire ... but it's okay (he sat on the bunk like me and lit a lamp) say it (I noticed his eyes something swollen)

Demi: listen ... let me know that Nick and I wasn't planned, we just realized that we were sexually attracted to each other, we started having casual sex and the feelings tied us both, that's why we're now dating ... don't think it was all as fast as it seems, but that's the way things are now and I really regret it ... I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I'm sorry I didn't wait for you, I'm sorry to disappoint you with this but for please don't hate me ... I can't live without my best friend (I started to cry and I felt his hands attracting me to his body, so we ended up lying down both, I on him and caressing us gently)

Joe: I love you Demi, I really do ... and this hurts a lot, but nothing will make me stay away from you, you will always be my guardian angel

Demi: I love you too, I'm sorry that things ended up like that again (I looked into his eyes and had to fight with myself to not devour his mouth at that moment)

Joe: I think it's better if you go back with Nick already ... I don't want to cause anyone more pain

Demi: why do you say it?

Joe: Because I don't want you to cheat on your boyfriend because of me, it's really sad but you still look like the most beautiful person I've ever met and you'll always have an important place in my heart for being my best friend, younger sister, guardian angel, ex-girlfriend, sister-in-law and first love ... I want to see you happy forever beautiful (she said that and I kissed her cheek, then we said goodbye and went back to sleep, but not with Nick, I went to my bus and there I stayed, thinking in the Jonas brothers, these two guys that I had stolen my heart and were fighting to keep the place).