Painted

Dear Diary

Kalani's Diary

Me and Kenny have been going out everyday for three months and i try to find something wrong with him but it's impossible. He is so patient, we haven't had sex, he hasn't came in my house or he hasn't made a pass at me. I know it's too early to say but I might be in love with him but I don't know what love feels like. I mean I thought i loved Saint but thats obviously not the case. 

Speaking of Saint; his boys been fucking following me for the longest 'trying' to act like i don't see them. I guess Saint finally got the hint that i was leaving and never going back to him. Sometimes i think about if me and him were still together and i had the baby would life be great or would it be a mess. I came to the conclusion it would be a mess and i'm happy i didn't bring a baby into this world being around drugs, guns and hoes. I do have times where i THINK, i miss saint but then kenny comes along and sweeps me off my feet.

Kenny has a business and its not drug related. I was very impressed when he took me to one of his corporate offices. I feel so safe being around him and the way he touches me it turns me on. No, he doesn't touch me in a sexual way so y'all can get y'all minds out the gutter, I mean he grabs my hand in public so soft but so firm, he wraps his arms around my waist and holds me like he doesn't want to let go, he often moves my hair out of my face and puts his hands on my cheek and stares at me deep in my eyes. He is just everything I've ever wanted and tomorrow night is the night i'm going to finally invite him in my house.

Hell i could use the company outside of Hannah and Hailey.

Love Kalani.

Y'all I'm sorry! I have writers block because im working on three stories at a time. This chapter is short but i should be updating all this week.!