Painted

Exchanged pt2

I've been here for a week and my birthday is tomorrow, I don't except to have a birthday party, I haven't had one since I was two years old and my mama was still on crack. Being here is so much better than being at my mamas house, I get my own room, theirs no random men coming in and out the house and did I mention I have my own room?! I use to sleep on the floor at my mamas house in the basement. The only thing I hate about being here is; Saint always comes in my room in the middle of the night and puts his thing in me, it still hurts but I hope I get use to it soon.

-Kalani! I know you hear me callin yo ass! bring yo fine ass here!

~Yes?

-Crawl to me baby

He always wanted me to crawl. Hell I was a dog to him, I wear a fucking collar for gods sake. What's worst is its still better than living with my mama. I wondered was she gonna come visit me tomorrow, probably not but its worth the thought

I got to the end of the steps and dropped down to my knees and started to crawl to him, he watched and told me to crawl slow and make eye contact with him. I never questioned Saint because his girlfriend did that before and he slapped the shit out of her, it wasn't worth it. I did anything Saint told me to do because I was tired of getting abused.

-Your birthday tomorrow baby girl

~Yes sir

-What you wanna do? you can get a day off, we can go out to eat or to the movies anything you wanna do. I'm down." He said as he took a drag of his blunt and blew it in my face

I thought about it and I didn't want to do anything, I just wanted to stay in my room and cry. I didn't know weather to be happy Saint was being nice to me or be scared because if he gives me a day off he's gonna want something in return.

~"No I'm okay, I just would like to spend time in the house" as I looked down at the floor hoping he wouldn't slap me for turning down his offer.

- "You okay baby girl?" he lifted my head up and saw some tears falling "Don't be sad, I know its been a lot going on and you haven't been here for long I just want you to feel at home." he said it like he was concerned

~ "I just don't understand why my mom didn't want me." I was being good and everything theirs no reason why I couldn't stay with her. I thought to myself

He looked at me and it looked like he felt bad and I couldn't help myself I cried hysterically, Saint was taken aback and picked me up and took me up the stairs to his room and laid me on the bed, he slid the cover over my naked body and kissed my forehead and at that very moment I fell in love with Saint the pedophile.

I woke up in Saints bed many hours later to him right beside me smoking a blunt. It was quiet and awkward because before I drifted off to sleep I saw a different Saint and I liked him. I wished he acted like that all the time towards me.

-Lani, you gotta go man. I can't keep doing this shit to you, you family and I don't know what the fuck I was thinking." he said running his fingers through his dreads

My eyes got wide and filled with tears

~ I don't have nowhere to go! Please don't kick me out, I'll do anything!

-Kalani, You been doing everything man and I fucked you up and what the fuck you mean you don't got nowhere else to go? Go stay with my mama. I'll drop you off come on get your shit man.

He looked at me like he was confused as to why I was crying, I didn't know his mama like that but from what I heard she was not a good woman.

~Saint can I just stay here until tomorrow? Please?

-"Man I don't care just be ready in the morning" he walked out of the room

~Where you going?

- Ima sleep on the couch

~come here, let me give you a going away present daddy