Entelechy (BTS X Suicidal Male Reader/OC)

Visited

I woke up from a nightmare. I regain my sight, I move my hand and I see the nurse adjusting my IV bag. She looked to me.

"You're awake, Mr. Oh"

"What happened?"

"You were unconscious"

"Why was I unconscious?"

"I can't help you with that Mr. Oh, maybe you can remember it or I should call Doctor Minwoo? ",as I remember everything what happened.

Doctor Minwoo, my father, choking me, blaming me. I touch my neck, it has bandages.

"We covered up the bruise, Mr. Oh,  I'll go outside and tell Dr. Lee and I'm sorry for all of this to happen to you"

"What do you mean nurse?"

"When you return to yourself, please look be strong and it's OK to need help sometimes",as she leaves,  that was peculiar and does she know something about me? She was an unusual nurse and it's my first time seeing here. I shouldn't mind it.

I was choked to death but who saved me? I can't recall seeing someone helped me, I only heard voices.

"Kid, don't you die on me",as I mumble to voice I've heard. Maybe it's just Dr. Lee but it's different than Minwoo-hyung. I sigh.

Was I really a burden to my family that my father would kill me?

Who is she that my father blame me dearly?

Was it my mother and now she's dead?

Why would I be alive now? What was my reason for my suicide?

I don't know, I really don't, I hope I can remember but I don't, only words echoed in my mind but where.

Why would I know words but not memories?

Tears falls down to my face as a pain in my chest opens, as if my only gateway is through suffering and crying my problems.

I am suicidal, I know that from the people here and from what I've seen but I couldn't feel it.  What made drive to that point?

I know I'm hypocrite to think that I would go back to my old self but I want to.

I want to know me even if it will bring back all my agonies buried.

I just want to know me, the real me, then I can understand why I'm here.

I didn't notice Minwoo-hyung was hugging me, I just sobbed on his chest.

"I'm sorry Hwan, I'm so sorry, this is all my fault, I shouldn't let that man enter",as I look at to him.

"It's OK hyung, I-i think I deserve it"

"No, don't you dare say that, you're everything but that"

"Then why would he do it? Am I a bad person?"

"You're not that Hwanchul, you're kind and caring person and that person didn't see it"

"Do you think so hyung?"

"Yes and I mean it, I can see in your eyes, you're pure and innocent but this world is just cruel"

"Thank you hyung"

"Anything for you Hwan",as I look at the and I see seven people, whom I've never seen people.

"U-uhm, hyung, who are they?"

"Oh, they're actually the one who visited and saved your life",as I stand and bowed.

"I-i would like to thank you and-",as I was cut and he hugged me and cried.

"I'm sorry"
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