today was my pentatonix concert and also when i met them
honestly i was an anxious mess, i couldn't say anything to them and we put our letters in the purse mom usually carries around but of course she didn't bring that one so i didn't get to give mitch my letter
it's fine i suppose, he probably wasn't going to read it anyway and if he did it would just make him sad
mom was able to give mitch the letter she wrote for him though and it mentioned my pillow with his face on it so he hates me even more now
first was sound check, and they sang "video killed the radio star" and answered questions and stuff
after we had the actual picture
i wanted to be in between scott and mitch, but mom went there first, so i awkwardly went to the other side of mitch and i was shaking and avoiding eye contact with him
he put his arm around me for the picture but i didn't get to hug him because it was raining and the venue said no which is sad but i don't want to contaminate him so it's for the best
i went with my mom and my best friend, and mom wanted a picture with just her and me as well as the one of all of us together, so she asked after the initial picture and i said "please no mom don't" and there was a really awkward few seconds of no one knowing what was going on and then mitch went "sorry" and he sounded so annoyed i'm the worst person ever
then we went back into the line for them to sign stuff, i brought my ptx presents: top pop vol. i cd case, and this was when we were supposed to give them their letters and everything but of course i didn't have mine
my best friend was in front of me, and when she gave her thing to kevin, he signed it several times but the sharpies kept not working so he tried several of them until finally scott gave him his sharpie to sign it
i was next and kevin had me wait because he said that he wanted my signature to be perfect but the sharpies weren't working so i stood there awkwardly feeling incredibly anxious
my shirt said "lol ur not mitch grassi" and when i got to scott he said he liked it and i'm pretty sure i didn't say thank you i just smiled so he thinks i'm the worst person ever too
he passed my case to mitch so i didn't have to give it to him
i literally did not say a word to mitch, after he signed it i was still kind of over by scott so he was trying to figure out whose it was and i had to take it from him
kirstin asked me how i was and i said the usual answer and asked her how she was and i thought she didn't hear me but i guess she did because she said she was good
matt was reading my shirt and he said "you're not matt sallee" and he laughed and said "just kidding we love mitch" or something
i don't know i'm feeling really frazzled now i'm sorry this is all over the place
the actual concert was amazing of course but i think mitch's microphone was a bit louder than the others and scott sang the same thing twice in "natural disaster" which if you've ever heard the song isn't how it goes
he sang "the more i get closer to you the more i know you just won't do" twice when he was most likely supposed to sing "girl i hate myself when you're near honey get up and get out of here" the second time to clarify what i said, but it still sounded good, at least he didn't forget the words completely
i enjoyed it, but i feel like i didn't enjoy it as much as i should have because i was kind of upset from how the meet and greet went and i don't feel much in general to begin with
i'm sorry this was so long, i'm going to go be sad now
be safe please
