this week was my first week of school
it was fine i guess, but it felt very long and i miss my old teachers a lot and i feel like i already have the exhaustion of going through an entire school year after just the first week
most of the kids at my school were districted for a different middle school so i don't know any of them, and because there are more from the other school i hardly have any classes with my friends
in fact, i only have one class with my best friend, no classes with ravenclaw-phan, and lunch with watsoninwakanda, and those are my three friends
i'm so scared my friends and i are going to drift apart because we never get to talk anymore due to having no classes together and when we do get to talk i either forget what i wanted to tell them or i feel annoying and end up censoring myself to not bother them like i usually do and i suck at making new friends
in my first class, there is one person from my old school, whom i was never really friends with. in my second class, there are two people from my old school in my grade (my second class is chorus so it's mixed up). in my third class, there are absolutely zero people from my old school. in my fourth class, i have lunch with madie. in my fifth class, there are three people from my old school, two of whom i was never friends with and one of whom i was friends with in elementary school. in my sixth class, there is one person from my old school, whom i was never really friends with. finally, in my seventh class, there is my best friend, and that's it.
this first week was easy academically, but that's because it's the first week and i'm so scared about the rest of the year, i don't want to fail my classes i've already gotten the same freakishly smart girl reputation i've always had in just a week and i hate it i don't want it
today in my biology class we graded each other's safety quizzes and those were easy of course but it still made me so anxious i hate it when people see my grades
i know for a fact this year will make my mental state decline even more rapidly than it already is so i apologize in advance for being sad all the time
i'm sorry for complaining
be safe
