Relapse Again

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I grab my skateboard and take off. Skating helps me think; clears my mind from all the shit I'm going through.

I skate to the park, about half a mile away, and continue skating there. 

There's clouds in the distance that are moving in closer. Storm clouds, most likely. But I don't turn back. 

I get off my skateboard and walk into the woods where my friends and I set up a make shift tree house (with the parks permission of course).

I climb in right when the rain starts pouring. I lay down on the wood planks and stare at the ceiling. I think about what just happened. I have 3 main best friends. I trust them with everything in my life. They are my family. My makeshift family. I just found out some news about one of them. I'm the only one she's told and it's hitting me hard. 

My phone buzzes. It's Mason. "Did Laylah tell you?" He asks when I answer the phone. 

Mason is Laylah's (1/3 of my best friends) older brother.

"Yeah," I weakly say as I fight back a couple tears. "She didn't say how long she has to me."

"About a month, maybe 2," He says. "Chances are low."

I blink back a couple tears. #StayStrongEvie "Alright," I say. I take a deep breath, realize the situation is not about me and say, "How are you doing with all of this?"

There's a pause on the other line. Silence. For a second I think maybe the call dropped. But then I hear him breathe in sharp and speak, "I'm fine." Sounds like a lie to me, but I choose not to question it. 

"You probably have things to do?" I ask hoping he'll say no and continue talking to me.

"Yeah, bye Evie," 

"Bye."

I hang up the phone and sit up. I wipe my eyes and dangle my feet out of the tree house. I never thought this day would come. When suddenly I'm all alone. 

The rain just misses my legs. It's coming down hard now, no chance of going home now. 

I stay in the tree house almost all night. I wake up at 2:30am once the rain has stopped and head back home. I decide just to walk, the skateboard will make too much noise. 

I get out my phone and take a picture on Snapchat of me walking home and post it on my private story. 

A minute later Mason replies: why r u still awake?

Me: I can ask you the same question

Mason: lol

Mason: why aren't u home?

Me: Don't worry bout it.

Mason: Did you fall asleep at your tree house?

Me: ...

Me: I might've

Mason: ok. u crazy

Me: i know

I reach my house smiling and realize that if my friends read this they'll figure out who all the people are and think I'm about to date Mason, or that I'm like really in love with him. No. I am not. Just continue the story, please don't think too much into the different characters. Loosely based off of you guys. 

I walk in and quietly get into bed. By now it's a little after 3 and I can't sleep. There's so many thoughts and questions rolling around in my head and I don't know what to do about any of it. I close my eyes and pray it'll be better in the morning.