Juuzou suzuya x seme male Reader (childish behavior)

Rainy evening, rainy mood

(Third person pov)
   On a rainy Saturday morning a [h/c] haired male slowly cracked his tears eyes open. He slowly sat up and looked around his room only to be met with silence. As expected his lover had not come home. [m/n] wanted to cry but with all his tears having been cried out the night before he was in able to. His heart told him to just lay back down, to just curl up and wait for his beloved to show. But his brain told him to get out of bed and to try and do enjoy him self today. The only reason he didn't go back to bed was because he knew the chances of Juuzou showing up today were slim to none.
   As [m/n] arose from bed he went to walk out his room but stopped as soon as he saw himself in the mirror. Day after day his habit of staring into the mirror grew worse and worse, eventually he feared it would be the only thing he was going to be able to do. He looked at every inch of his body. From the defining features to the most obscure details. [m/n] was not a narcissist, he ever thought he looked ugly but he would never say he looked beautiful either. He always just thought he was okay, he thought he was passable.
   But after weeks and weeks of being ignored and lied to by the one he called his lover those thoughts were smashed. Day after day it got worse every time he saw himself in the mirror he no longer saw anything resembling passable all he could see was ugly. That's what he thought he was. Ugly. He wanted to just look away, to not have to see his own reflection. But he couldn't move.
    His mind wanted him to stay their and see every so called "flaw" about him. It was the ringing of his door bell that had awoken him from his haze. With one last look at the mirror he left his bedroom and went to see who was at the door. He looked through the small peep hole to see none other than...Ken Kaneki. He and Kaneki were old friends from middle school, and it  was only he who [m/n] trusted in this world. He cracked the door open enough to let have his face visible to the slightly wet Kaneki.
   "Hi [m/n]!! Juuzou asked me to stop by and check on you. He said he wouldn't be home for a few hours. [m/n] looked at the smile upon Kaneki's face. The smile that on any other day would brighten his. But today did not.
  "Oh...I'm doing fine. So there's no reason to worry. He tried to smile hoping kaneki would fall for his lie but he had no such luck.
   "Are you sure about that? Your eyes are completely blood shot and you look like you haven't a good nights sleep in a while."
   "I...I'm fine..K..Kaneki...really." That couldn't have been farther from the truth and Kaneki knew it.[m/n] may have been a shy person but rarely ever did his voice crack while speaking. Kaneki went to open his mouth but he was silenced as soon as he saw fresh tears trying to escape.
  "[m/..n]?!" Kaneki flung the door open and wrapped his arms around his talkers friend's waist as tears started to slide down his face. Kaneki with his arm still around [m/n]'s waist slowly brought him to his couch where the two sat down.
   As soon as Kaneki's butt touched the sofa he was squashed against [m/n]'s body as he hugged him back. Kaneki looked up so he could face his friend. And he would regret that for the rest of his life as he saw his bloodshot eyes with tears falling down them like they were fountains.
  "[m..m/n] what's wrong?! Please talk to me!!" Kaneki frantically tried to comfort his friend to get him to stop his crying. He lifted [m/n]'s chin up so he could look him in the face again. But as soon as he did he was pushed down onto his friends couch. He looked up surprised only to see his friend towering above him. He tried to open his mouth only to find another pair of lips against his. His eyes were wide as saucers as he was being kissed by his best friend. His best friend who was already in a relationship.
  
   Im so so sorry that this part sucked! I promise that I will try my best to make the next part better. That is if you even want a next part after this.😭 Also sorry if the ending kinda pissed you off! I needed a impactful way to end this chapter and this is what I came up with. I promise I'll explain why this happened in the next chapter. I really hope your interest in this story is still strong and I hope that you will continue to support me going forward. Remember to vote on this chapter and to leave a comment. Constructive criticism is always very appreciated. And until next time. BYE!😁👋🏻