I'm Sorry

Chapter 2

"What's going on? Do you know what people are talking about? Does it have to do with me because they keep starring at me? What's with the serious face?" I ask about 10x faster than I usually talk.

"Amelia...Niall is coming back to school." She says slowly as she waits for realization to settle on my face.

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"No! Why?! Shouldn't he be on some major headline tour? Or picking up random girls on the streets? Or even saving some Artic penguin?" I say in anger.

"I don't know. I just heard last period that he was coming back for his senior year. He wanted to see his old pals and finish what he started here. I wanted to tell you right away. I know what he did to you few years ago and I knew this was going to hit you hard. Amelia just know I'm here for you." She says.

"I know you will. Do you know when he is suppose to arrive?" I ask.

"I heard he was suppose to fly in tonight and come sometime tomorrow. But I'm not really sure.

Great I think to myself. He comes tomorrow. That sure gives me a lot of time to plan out how I'm going to avoid him for the next 10 months. The school is big but it's definitely not big enough to avoid someone for that long.

"Great." I say out loud. "Hey Cait I'll see you at lunch"

The rest of the day is spent with me trying not to be affected by everyone's stares. I get the whole fact that I used to be friends with this kid. But the key word here is USED. We have not communicated since two weeks into the show. He has changed and so have I. Maybe I can convince my mom that I am sick and need to stay home tomorrow....or for maybe the rest of the school year. Nobody truly know's what happened to Niall and I. They just figured he got famous and just got tired of me...which I guess is sorta true. But they don't know everything. The only person who I opened up to about this was Caitlin. After a month or so after she moved here, she really began to notice how depressed I was. Or maybe she always noticed but didn't get the guts to ask about it until a month of being here. I opened up to her because I was tired of being by myself or depending on Corey for everything. I knew I could trust her and we have been best friends ever since.

You may think I am overreacting and maybe I am. But before Niall left for the show, we said a few things and feelings were exposed. Ni kissed me and called me his special girl. I always felt special to Niall. But then he kicked me to the streets like I was nothing. When you're a 15 year old girl who just confessed their feelings to their life-long bestfriend and to have him push you away two weeks later, it crushes you. I don't think I could forgive him for what he did. It was torture seeing all of those posters and ad's in the paper about how successful he has become and what pride the town has for him. Each time I walked past one of the stupid signs I had to fight the itch to just rip them down and stomp on them. And now knowing he is coming back is stressing me out. What if he wants to become friends again? Or what if he doesnt? I don't know what to expect. Is he bringing his new friends from the band?

The rest of the night all I can think about is how tomorrow is going to go. I mentally make a pact with myself that no matter what happens that I can't let him back in. I have to protect myself from that pain again. A call interrupts my thoughts. Please don't be Niall. It's Corey.

"Hey Corebug what's happening?" I ask in a false cheery voice.

"You heard didn't you?" He responded picking up on my voice.

"Yeah...are you excited to see him?" I ask hesitantly.

"I'm not really sure. I mean he used to be my best friend, we havent talked in ages but i don't know I kind of miss him. But then I think of what he did to you and how crushed you were. I was left to pick up the pieces. He should have treated you better." He says.

"Yeah" Is all I could say.

"Hey Ameba, I promise I'll stand up to him for you tomorrow, all you'll have to do is ask." He says sweetly. I think if it wasn't for the whole Niall fiasco I probably would have ended up with Corey. But the kid has seen me cry way too much and I think that might have scared him off from pursuing anything more than just a friendship. However there are times when Corey just says certain things that make me question how he truly feels. Corey acts like a tough guy like most teenage boys do, even though he is just a sweetie pie. He is one of the "jocks" so acting like a "pansy" is frowned upon. So when he talks all sweet, you know you are special to him.

I was about to respond when my mom's voice rips through the silence.

"AMELIA! Go to bed! It's already past midnight!"

"Fine!" I respond to her. "Hey Corey I should get going to bed it's late. And I have a feeling it's going to be a long day tomorrow."

"Yeah you're right. Night my little Ameba. Cait and I will be right there by your side tomorrow. " He says then hangs up.

I turn off the lights and slowly drift off to sleep thinking about what tomorrow will bring and the fact that Niall has probably landed by now...