Kaven Rants

my high school experience/ after graduation

So I got a lot to get off my mind and if I jump all over the place I apologize in advance.

Anyone going in high school or is already in high school be aware of what's to come it's not like middle school or elementary school.

I feel like I did a lot self discovery separated myself from those who were toxic and bringing me further down in life.

I gone through a lot in the four years I been in high school from anxiety to depression, close to suicide.

I had my ups and down like any other

Having to repeat another class just to get my credits, reuniting with old friends,  loosing those who we're my friends.

Had my share of insecurities it's a lot and you think I would be glad I'm done

But it's get tougher when you have no clue what you want to do. The whole summer I been applying for jobs just to go back up north to visit

I thought about college but I don't want to even think about school knowing I don't have money just to up and go to school

Or travel, things cost money

And not keeping in touch with anyone since school, it's every now and then I'll hear something from my friends from school but outside of school haven't hang with anyone.

Everyone got their own stuff  going on and I'm just here. I haven't changed but others changed around me.

I just been here talking with a guy and done something drastic with my hair that's about it for the most part.

If it wasn't for all that I went through in high school I wouldn't be who I am. I became tougher and sometimes I'm easy to read I just became a person who tries to see the good in everyone and stop to help anyway I can but there's no way for me to sugarcoat anything. I'm blunt and speak but I'm also quiet and observe my surroundings.

I wouldn't change that about myself. I'm trying to do better with my anxiety and me doing youtube it's helping me a bit to get comfortable and not be so shy.

I get comments privately about me inspiring others and I didn't know I had that effect I just do my own thing and never expect some to look up to me. I always been inspired by others especially younger people including raven because she do so much for the community

I have some others stuff to say but I'll save it in a future chapter love you all

~K 💜🌙