A Collection Of Things I Am To Afraid To Say

August 2nd, 2018

To the boy who broke me,
Despite everything, I always loved you.
And I always wished for you. Every 11:11 wish,
every shooting star, every birth day candle,
every dandelion blown into the wind.
They were all doused with the wish
you'd figure out how to love me too.

No matter how many times you let me down,
or tore open my soul just to watch it bleed,
I never stopped. I always had you in mind.
What you were doing. If you were happy.
And maybe the slight hope
that you still thought of me too.

I always gave into the hope
That one day we'd figure it out
And things would be better.
I always ignored you infidelities,
And your lack of trying,
Your lies and the pain you caused
Because I knew deep down you were better.

You gave me no reason to continue to love you.
But I did anyway.
And I always will. No matter where we are in life.
Because that's what you are to me.
You're the boy who broke me.
And the boy I always loved despite my broken pieces.

I'll always want the best for you
And love you from a distance.
Because you deserve the love.
And I deserve the healing distance.