Love 8,000 Miles Away (NJH)

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

Song for this chapter is Let Her Go by Passenger!

Amanda's POV:
I woke up with no clue to where I was. Sunlight filtered into the room and I felt weight on the left side of me. I finally opened my eyes and saw a head full of blonde hair on my chest. Niall? His bare chest lay on top of mine and across my stomach. My right hand played with his hair for a while, just feeling how soft and fluffy it was. Small snores came from his mouth and I began thinking about how I ended up here.

I decided it was time to finally wake up Niall because I couldn't get off the bed without waking him up.

"Niall." I shook his arm lightly. I heard a grumble come from his parted lips. He looked so cute. I planted a kiss on his lips and he stirred.

"Niall wakey wakey eggs and bakey." I shook his arm again, whispering in his ear. I saw a small smile appear on his face and I giggled.

"Goodmorning." Niall whispered, his voice raspy and deep. He looked up at me from my chest and smiled.

I played with his hair and just laughed.

"This is the best way to be woken up in the mornings." Niall smiled, rolling over and stretching his arms.

I smiled, "how did I end up here in the first place?" I asked, raising my eyebrows at him.

"Well you fell asleep on my shoulder at the hospital and then I just brought you to my flat." He shrugged drowsily.

"Oh." I smiled. I was smiling too much this morning. I stretched my arms, starting to sit up.

"No don't go yet." Niall whined.

"This is just like it was three years ago." I told Niall, while giggling.

"I knew everything would work out in the end." Niall smiled, giving me a kiss.

"Ditto." I laughed.

"Amanda, I was wondering..." Niall started, staring at the ceiling. "Did you have a boyfriend after you know... us?"

I took in a deep breath, did he really think that I would? I wasn't like him, I couldn't move on that quickly. He had changed my life in such a way that I didn't think was possible for a guy to do. I'd fallen in love with him back in Ireland and I'd never stopped loving him.

"No Niall, unlike you, I could not have feelings for another person after falling in love with you." I told him, trying to express my feelings on the subject clearly.

This time it was Niall's turn to sit up and sigh.

"It was never the same. I was just attracted to a few girls I guess," Niall shrugged. "Imagine meeting a bunch of models or hot people that actually liked you too. It's different." He finished, my heart feeling a familiar pain like before.

"So you mean I'm not good enough right? I'm not a model or "hot" enough for you right?" I sputtered out, grief filling inside of me. I got up off the bed, pulling my hand away from Niall's. He had changed, I mean his words clearly showed that. I saw my shoes on the floor and hurriedly put them on.

"Amanda that was not what I meant and you know that. God I'm such a fuck-up." Niall got off the bed also and ran to me, holding my arm tightly.

"Just listen to me." He pleaded. I couldn't face him, his eyes would lure me back to him. I had to stay strong. His standards had obviously changed and I was just an ordinary girl to him.

"Let me go Niall," I tried getting out of his grasp. "I'm tired of playing these games, I'm obviously not good enough for you, now that you're a big popstar and everything."

"Amanda you mean the world to me, you know I can't explain myself," Niall muttered. "Please don't leave me again.

"I'm not leaving." I sighed. He sounded so broken, and as I slowly turned around to look at him, I saw tear drops on his cheeks. His eyes were a deeper blue, and as they stared at me, I felt remorse and an aching feeling in my chest.

"Can we just have a break? And once you can explain to me what you mean, just call me or something." I used my thumbs to wipe away his tears. His hands let go of my arm slowly, and I could feel the contact of his skin even when he let go.

"But Amanda-" he started as I approached the door.

"Don't worry Niall, I'm not going 8,000 miles away." Those were my last words to him, as I walked out of the door.

Note: this was a short little update- the last chapter is next and it's going to be long and so emotional omg!!

Keep your head held up high always, and don't let anybody let you down, because it's up to you to feel the way you do. Love you and Happy Four Years of 1D by the way! :')
-stargurl