i am actually phisically drained. this year has taken a toll on me. this goes to the boy i can't stop thinking about, and to myself. because i know i won't keep you close much longer.
i quit
i quit my bad habits
even before they become habitsi no longer smoke
i no longer drink
and i no longer flirt with the pretty onesi quit my bad habits
because i'm scared of getting used to themi quit all my lessons
because i am so so tiredi no longer dance nor sing
and the piano is giving up on mei quit all my lessons
because i am not good enough to take themi quit making peace
because it makes me angry insidei do not try to make amends
it takes too much energy and leaves me drainedi quit making peace
because it is not worth it in the endi try to quit trying
trying so hardi never cared about my social media
and i disregarded my accountswhy do i know care
care so muchi've tried to quit
a fair amount of thingsi have succeded in some
though i have work to do stillat the end of the day
in my veins runs the blood to celebratecelebrate having quit alcohol
or another vicebut i can't help but wonder
once i finally quit youwill i be able to celebrate?
or will i just cry?
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midnight stuff
Poesíarandom things such as poems or thoughts written by me at midnight that i probably will regret posting