Who Could Love Me? (Jerome Valeska X Fem Reader)

Secrets

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: mention of rape and abuse⚠️

     The sun is setting, and it looks like everyone is in their rooms for once. Light footsteps make their way to the leftover donuts that are still on the table. You want to do something to get your mind off of your wretched past 'I guess I always was a little psycho, but I don't want to think about all the things I've done. Why won't it leave my mind? I've accepted the fact that I was always jealous of other people who would try to hang out with my friends. Then as I got older it became a deadly type of jealousy towards any friends or family members of my significant others. I'm glad none of them were in the court, imagine if I had to explain that to the jury.' As you pick up a donut you feel serene, 'I'll stop eating sweets tomorrow.' Jerome walks in, he is possibly the most unstable amongst the group. He approaches you; you walk to the other side of the table to keep some distance between the two of you.

     "Come on princess, I thought we were finally getting along." He smiles at you and holds his hands behind his back.

     "I don't trust you." An uneasy feeling creeps into your stomach as you take a bite of the donut.

     "Oh, that's not completely true," Jerome gets closer but you are determined to keep the table between the two of you. Jerome lowers his voice, "you don't trust yourself... or men. Why do you think that is?" Confusion consumes your entire being, he grins. "Is it because your father beat you or because your boyfriend raped you?" Your stomach sinks, "or is it because your brother and cousins raped you?" He smiles. A mix of anger and sadness whirl in you, he's always managed to get on your nerves, but this is the last straw. The donut falls, you step onto the table and launch yourself onto him. Bringing him down and ever treat on the table in the process. You're on the floor with your hands around his neck sitting on top of him. Jerome just keeps giggling, gasping for air with his hands around your wrists.

     Your heartbeat thumps in your ears. "How do you know that?! Tell me!" You demand but all he does is laugh. You smash his head against the floor, but he continues his fit of laughter. 'I only told Strange that, and he keeps the files in his office- Agh I'm an idiot! Jerome has people of course he would be able to get his hands on it.' Your eyes swell with tears, but you refuse to let them out.

     "Okay (Y/N) I think that's enough." Galavan walks in hoping to defuse the situation as he always does. Your grip on Jerome's throat loosens a bit, you stare up at Galavan with a look that frightens him "calm down (Y/N) I'm sure we can-"

     "Hey Galavan I know you think you're helping but I finally got her attention and you're ruining the moment." As soon as Jerome says that you tighten your grip.

     'He seriously can't be doing this for attention.' You want to skin him alive.

     "Tabitha, can you take Miss (L/N) to her room please." Galavan walks out.

     Tabitha threatens to hurt you if you don't let go of Jerome. 'Is it worth it? Getting hurt just so I can strangle this psycho? Ha no.' You grumble as you let go of Jerome and walk to your room. 'He must be toying with me.'

     You slam your door and lock it, finally all your pent-up feelings can be set free. "No," it felt as if you were being pulled back into your mind "STOP IT!" You hate when that happens, you frantically look for anything you can break. Anything you can let your frustrations out on, "a stupid little golden statue. Rich people have the tackiest taste." You grab the gold misshapen human and beat the nightstand with it. "Fine," you swung down hard but it barely did anything. "I'm crazy," you yank the lamp out of its socket. "If the pain I went through all of my life caused me to not care about most humans, even my own family-" you chuck the lamp across the room. "Then call me crazy!" Adrenaline pumps through your veins "crazy because I won't blindly give respect to anyone." You're about to throw your desk against the wall until Barbra knocks on your door.