Unordinary Gamer Girl (Seokjin x Reader)

Missing you

~A few days ago~

~Your mom's P.O.V.~

I opened my eyes to the birds chirping, and harmonizing together. The thoughts of my older daughter filled my mind. "I wonder how's she doing. Will she be visiting today? Will I get to see her once more?" and many more. It was my choice, but I couldn't do anything about it. I love Y/N with all my heart, no matter how much I shouted at her. I feared for my family. If my parents figured about Y/N's gaming, they might rip apart my family. I had to let Y/N go to make sure my family will be okay, and I regret it everyday. "If only the rules were different, if only I could have fought back and defended my entire family without fear," I thought, before getting off my bed. "All I ever wanted was for my family to live happily, and to forget about the stupid rule that my family holds. But as long as my parents live, this rule will forever be held in the family name," I stared at myself in the mirror. Even through everything I told Y/N, I still love her. She was happily living her life, forgetting about the family that once raised her. Everyday I wonder if she'll come back, but she never has, and I disliked her for not disobeying my words. It just comes to show how much she listens to me. All I wanted was to see her sitting in the living room, laughing and having conversations like there was no tomorrow. I wanted her back in her old room. I wanted to enter and see that she's happily sitting on her bed, playing her video games. When she was younger, I'll catch her playing video games, but I didn't say a word about it. I knew that gaming brought her happiness. But at some time, I knew that happiness wouldn't last long. The day where I needed to shout at her and call her unnecessary names, and tell her to leave my life without falling down with tears. But after all that, tears still appear in my eyes as the memory floods back in my head.

I walked into the kitchen to see my youngest daughter, taking selfies as usual. "Princess, will you help me make breakfast?" I asked. But I already knew the answer she'll give me, and forever give me. "Not now, mom! I'm trying to post something for Instagram," Momo replied, posing once more. Y/N was never like Momo, she would always want to help me twenty four, seven. But since Momo is the new princess, she doesn't help me at all. I miss having a helping hand around the house, someone to have conversations with. Even with gaming, and even all the hate I threw on Y/N, as long as she was living in this house, she always wanted to help no matter what. There isn't a single day that I forget about Y/N's kindness everyday. It only makes me hate myself even more. There's also constant reminders of Y/N, and reminders of old memories. "You should help your mom, princess," my husband said. Momo groaned. "But I don't want to! I'm busy trying to look good for social media. Aren't you happy for me? I'm feminine, unlike Y/N!" she whined. I rolled my eyes, "If I had a choice, I would prefer Y/N in this house rather than you." Y/N didn't slack, and she was also feminine for the majority of the time. I'm wondering how I failed to raise a good second child. Y/N was constantly good with grades while Momo was failing, Y/N helped me while Momo took selfies daily, there was so much Y/N did better than Momo. (Quick note: Don't EVER compare people, it'll make them feel worse) "You're right, your are feminine, but don't you think it's about time you helped me around the house? I mean, a young lady like you should help her mother when she ask," I said, trying to prove a point, but it clearly didn't register in her head. "That's the point. You asked me, and I denied," she replied. I sighed, this is what I get for not disciplining her good enough. Suddenly, something came to mind. "I wonder if she still has that ring..." I thought.

~After a while~

(Refer to Part 30)

Whenever I had time, I would secretly watch Y/N's YouTube videos. I might rewatch some as well. They always made me smile. It was nice to see how far she got on her own, and I knew Momo wouldn't make it that far. Although it was wrong, I constantly compared Y/N to Momo. I always knew Y/N was better. Soon I heard a noise from downstairs, it sounded like squealing. I got up from my bed before heading to the front door. As I approached it, I heard shouting from Momo. Within a few seconds, I was standing right behind Momo. That's when I saw Y/N through the doorway. "She's back..." I thought, feeling my heart fill with happiness to see she was doing well. But I quickly glared at her, making it seem like I still hated her. "What did I say about coming here, Unordinary Girl?" I asked with a angry expression. "I missed you..." I thought, faintly showing my expressions. "Yeah, yeah, don't show your face here, blah, blah, blah," Y/N replied before walking off. I quickly changed my attention to Momo. "She didn't hurt you, right?" I asked, analyzing Momo. I knew Y/N would never do such thing, she's a caring person. After a while, I looked over to see my oldest daughter walking off, her back was facing me. "I'm sorry for everything. All the things I have to call you, all the lies I said, and for everything. I hope you're doing well," I thought. Maybe I thought that she could read my thoughts, and come running back to me. But Y/N entered her car without a glance, making me think that I ruined her so badly that she didn't even want to look back at me, not even a glance. "She didn't hurt me," Momo said before holding up a strip of paper, making me look back at her. "Y/N just gave me a ticket for a BTS concert! I'm going to have so much fun!" she shouted before running to her room. I sighed. "She's still kind..." I thought before closing the door. Y/N would always ask permission to go somewhere, but Momo disappears into thin air without a trace. It annoyed me to see Momo carelessly leaving the house without informing me, I worried for her. But she seemed to be careless, and I guess I couldn't stop her.

"I miss you Y/N, please visit me next time..."

I hoped your enjoyed!
~XutieMiako