Letter Go | Jensoo

Year Nine: Half A Heart.

📍Jeju Island, South Korea 🇰🇷

Waking up to an empty bed was something that Jennie Kim has gotten used to these days. It didn't mean it hurt any less, she just has gotten better at ignoring it.

She had good days and bad days. On the good days she'd wake up with a small sigh, rolling over into cool sheets. She'd stare at the empty spot next to her for a moment before getting out of bed and continuing her day.

On the bad days, she'd hug the pillow next to her and cry her eyes out. Missing the person that belonged there.

Her hands would tremble as she clutched the material. Clutching onto what was left of the scent she loved so much.

Today wasn't meant to be spent like that. Jennie knew that if she started the day that way, she would never leave the house.

Within the next hour she was pulling her car into an empty lot. Taking the flowers out of the passenger seat, she exited the car.

It was overcast today. Not much sun peeking through the clouds. Jennie suspects it'll rain.

But to Jennie there wouldn't ever be clear skies again. And just like the clouds her eyes would do the same, it seemed like everyday it rained.

Jennie walked the rows along rows that never seemed to end until she stopped at the one she came here for.

With one blink her eyes were glistening. She sat down in front of the head stone and dusted off the familiar name.

Jennie set her flowers down. They were her favourite. Yellow and white daisies.

"Hi Jichu..." Jennie says. She lets out a shaky breath before continuing. "Not much has happened since I last came here. With me anyways. Lisa and Chaeyoung had their baby. Her name is Hanna. You'd love her Jisoo, she's beautiful. They're both very happy, and we all miss you very much."

"I miss you. I know that you told me that I should continue living my life and being happy even if you're not here...b-but it's getting so hard." She cries.

"Waking up everyday with out you by my side is waking up to nothing. I-I can't live without you Jisoo. I feel like everyday it gets worse, and my biggest fear is that one day I won't remember."

"I'm scared that one day I won't remember your laugh, or your smile or your beautiful face."

Jennie stops for a moment her shoulders shake from the sobs and she hides her face in her knees to cry it out.

She didn't want to have to remember Jisoo through memories anymore. It all hurt too much.

She wanted Jisoo here, with her. She wanted Jisoo's strong arms to hold her and tell it was okay.

Jennie wiped her tears and stared at the head stone in front of her.

"I-I wish some how you could be here. They say now you're in a better place, and I would be too if I could see your face." Jennie cries.

"Jennie..."

Jennie lifts her head at the sound of her voice.

"Jisoo?"

"Jennie..."

"Jisoo!"

•••

"Jennie baby wake up, you're having a bad dream."

Jennie gasps loudly as her eyes pop open. She's overtaken by sobs before clinging on tightly to the comforting embrace she longed for.

"Shhh baby I'm here. Don't worry. I'm here I'm here." Jisoo whispers, holding her. She continues whispering sweet nothings to Jennie, waiting for her to calm down.