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we bloom

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The stars seem to twinkle more. The moon shines brighter than ever.

And you're as beautiful as the first time I laid my eyes on you.

"Some party huh."

You look at me as you spoke, and you smile a little before looking away.

I wish I'd seen more. I wish I looked for you sooner.

But I don't want to keep you here if you don't want to.

"You want to go back inside?"

"No. I've had enough."

Our words are measured, our mouths held back in case we say too much.

Are you scared? Like me?

"I didn't know you'd be here." you tell me. This time, you don't look anymore. You just stare at the night sky.

"I haven't spent New Years here since.. since I left." I say slowly.

"Yeah.. that was two years ago? Wasn't it?"

I just nod, looking somber for a reason. You don't have to remind me. I know the number of years I spent away from here. Hearing you say it seems like it was longer than two years.

I hear you sigh and it shakes me. I can leave if you ask me to, put me in my place, if I did have a place. But if I'd be honest I wish you would ask me to stay.

"I hate how awkward this is."

You come closer and I hope you don't hear me swallow from anticipation. I am thrilled, but also scared. Looking at you does things to me. I don't have any hold on my body when it reacts to you, especially now that you're a universe closer. If you touch me I might—

You nudge me, like old times, and give a quick chuckle.

"Come on Jimin. Let's be friends again."

It wasn't the words I expected, so I just blinked, a lot. And you laughed at my reaction. It hasn't register yet but hearing you just puts a smile on my face.

It's the same laugh you do when I do something stupid, like act cute to win you over. And I remember doing that a lot when we were together. It was for the most random, shallow things. Like making you feed me, or asking for a kiss. But playing with my hair wins them over. I think I asked you that plenty of times in a single day. And you would laugh like this.

This widens my smile. We were like this before.

I wish this moment would never end.

I was too late to wipe my smile off before you saw it.

And it fell, my smile.

So did your laugh.

We only stared at each others eyes.

I want to kiss you so bad it hurts.