Trying//////Sequel to Where it starts! Jamilton

CHAPTER THREE

*Thomas* 

*Time skip*

The others left for home, but I stayed. My eyes drooped and my head fell onto the bed. 


I woke up with a start. My eyes dart around and stop when I look at my husband. 
I instantly smile. The first real smile in a while. 

"T-Tommy?" I nodded quickly and rushed to hug him. 

"I'm so happy you're awake!" I said. 

He nuzzled closer to me, settling into the hug. Suddenly he pushed me away, still gripping my shirt. 

"Tommy, where's Pip? Is he okay?! Is my son okay!?" I take him back hm the hug starting to cry at the mention of my Pip. 

"H-he d-didnt make it to the hospital, Lex. He died. I miss him." This time he shoved me away and I tumbled back. 

"No! No! He's not gone! Stop lying to me, Tom! Tommy h-he can't be gone." His voice lowered to a whisper as his eyes flooded with tears. 

"I know. I'm sorry Lexi. I'm so sorry." He sobbed into my shoulder, meanwhile, my fingers were intertwined with his hair and I put my hand on his back to pull him closer. 

*The way I pictured this is so heartbreaking* 

"I c-cant lose my boy, Tom. I can't lose my only kid!" 

"I don't want to lose him either Lexi. But, but we have to." 
"Tommy, could I have prevented this?" I pull away and place my hands on either side of his face. 
"Lexi, no. No, you did everything just right. Okay?" He nods, and I wipe away some of his tears with my thumb. 

He leans into my touch and I pull him back into a hug. 

"I love you Lexi, and you're here and alive. Right now, that's all that matters." 

"I'm sorry I put you through this Thomas." He mumbles. "I'm sorry that I made you worry about me." 
"You're my husband Lex, I worry no matter what." I hear him solemnly giggle, but it stops quickly. I feel disappointed, I loved it when he laughed. 

"I'm sleepy, Tommy." 
"Okay, I'll let you sleep." I go to sit in the chai but Alex yanks me back onto the bed and scoots over a little. 

I smile slightly, my eyes drooping a bit. I crawl onto the bed and wrap my arms gently around his waist. 

"Lex, please don't leave me too." 
"I promise. I love you." 
"I love you too." Alex drifts to sleep and I hear small and cute snores coming from the smol bean. 

I hold him as tightly as I can without hurting him much. I can't sleep. I keep watch over my Alex. I stare out of the window at the dark blue night sky. A sigh escapes my mouth as I feel Alex grip my shirt tighter. 

It was only 4:32 so I had some time before morning came. 

I couldn't stop thinking about if I lost Lex. What would happen. I push the thoughts outside of my head and relax and tell myself that he woke up and he's right here. 

 
My eyes slowly close and I drift off to dreamy land. 

*Laf* Whhhaaaaaatttt


We decided to go back and check on Thomas. He stayed all night. 

When Herc and I get to the hospital room we saw Thomas curled up close to Alex, and Alex's arms wrapped around his neck. 

I walk in quietly Herc following behind me. I quickly take a picture on my phone. Herc tries to hide his laughs at my actions, I just glare at him playfully. 

We decide to leave and come back later. I make sure to send the picture to Peg Leg. She still loves those ships of hers. 

*Time skipppp* 

*still Laf* 

When we come back again, Thomas and Alex are just talking and laughing. 

I walk in quickly to talk to Alex after he just woke up. 

"Alex! Mon petite Lion!" 
"Laffy Taffy!" I hug him tightly. 
"When did you wake up?" Herc asks from beside me. 
"Middle of last night? I think." 

"Oh." 

Thomas sits quietly, just staring at smiling at his husband. 

I chuckle a bit from the sight of it. He is so adorable. 



*Alex* 

Laf and Herc stayed for maybe an hour before leaving. 

It was just Thomas and me cuddling on the stiff hospital bed. 

I told him I was fine multiple times. 

I wish I could say I'm really fine. 

But I'm not. 

I blame myself for all of this. This is my fault. Maybe if I scolded Pip sooner, told him to keep his eyes on the road, or if I paid attention and acted faster, maybe my Pippy would still be alive. 

This isn't fair! It should have been me! Why couldn't I have died instead of Philip? 

Thomas breathed softly beside me, cuddling me and holding me as tight as he could. 

These thoughts swirled my head over and over and they just wouldn't stop. But I can't let anyone in, I can't let anyone know that I blame my himself. Or that I'm so depressed. 

I'll be fine. 

Just keep it all bottled up inside. 

I closed my eyes and listened to Thomas' sweet and rhythmic breaths, cuddling closer to his warmth.

No matter how hard I tried to sleep just couldn't come for me. I laid awake waiting for Thomas to wake up. 

I kept my eyes closed, images of the car crash passing through my mind. 

Something took over me. 

I just started to shake and tears spilled from my eyes. I just curled up in a ball. 

Shutting my eyes tighter, my body felt numb. 

"Alex, baby? Whats wrong?" Da*n it! I woke up Thomas. 

"N-nothing hun." 
"Alex your crying and shaking!" He sat up quickly, now being fully awake at the sight of me. 

"Alex, shhh, it's okay, I'm right here. Hey, look at me." He turned my now limp body towards him. My eyes still shut tight as tears poured from them, whimpers escaping my mouth. 

"Hey, look at me, baby."  I opened my eyes. But it was like I didnt. It was just blurry and spots were everywhere and I couldn't see. 

"Tommy!" I cried out. 
"what, what?" 
"I-I can't see." I barely choke out. 

I started reaching out for him feeling for where he was.
"Hey, I'm right here." He grabbed my hands and pulled me close to him. 

"I'm scared T-Tommy." 
"Shh, I know. Shh. Take a deep breath with me okay?" I nodded. I felt his chest rise slowly. I did the same. I felt r his chest go down slowly and I repeated the action. 


We went on like this for a while. My vision slowly fading back in. 


"Are you okay baby?" I hear pure worry filled his voice. 
I simply nod and clutch to his shirt. My knuckles slowly turning white. 


"Shh, relax okay darlin'?" His voice helped to sooth my still ragged breathing. 

"Are you better now?" He asks me, his voice low. I look up at him and nod. 
"Good." He kisses me lightly. It was sweet and comforting. 


"What happened there?" 
"I-I don't know. My basic motor skills wen crazy." 
"Hun, was there a cause?" I knew that he wanted me to say that I had a panic attack even though he already knew. I hadn't had a panic attack in a while. 

"I don't know Tommy. I haven't had a panic attack in so long." 
"It's okay. We'll figure this out later okay?" I nod and nuzzle my face in the crook of his neck. 

"I love you, Lexi. Okay?" 
"I know. I love you too Tom." 

I calmed down after that, and being exhausted from the previous events sleep came easily.




A/N Heya! So I decided that I will try my best to update every day on this book, but I might only update every other day, but we'll see how it goes. I hope ya'll enjoyed, thanks for reading, commenting and voting and 
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