Trying//////Sequel to Where it starts! Jamilton

CHAPTER FOUR

*Thomas* 

I was worried about Alexander. We cuddled and he knocked out fairly quickly. I mean I would too if I just had a major like panic anxiety attack. 

I don't know what triggered it. He was sleeping and then woke up dazed and scared. 

I was scared out of my life. He hasn't had a panic or anxiety attack for a long time. Not since our college years almost, that was maybe 18-19 years ago. I wish I could get inside his head and know what is going on. 

I hope he isn't blaming himself. I don't want that. It's not his fault. If he were driving, the same thing might have happened. I just don't want him to be depressed. 

I mean, I'm depressed, but I can't let him know that. I have to be strong for him, in the state he's in, I can't afford to bring him down more. 


I watch as he sleeps. His face is perplexed. He look's confused, angry and sad at the same time. I want him to sleep peacefully for once. Something tells me he hasn't gotten a good night's rest since before the accident. 

I start to stroke his hair softly, braiding some strands and pulling those strands back into a bun. He looks so adorable. I rub his back and arm gently, trying to maybe soothe him a  bit. He always calmed down when I rubbed his back. His face still looks the same. 

I sigh quietly and just hold him tighter. 

I can't do much more. 


* Angelica* 

I round up my sisters to go to the store. We were gonna get Alexander some sweets and snacks, maybe some books from his apartment. 

"So what books should we bring him?" Eliza ask's as she searches through Alexanders bookshelf. 

"Well, before the, ya know, I saw him reading this...This book!" Peggy snatches a book and skips over to me handing it over. 

"Mmm, okay. Maybe a 2 more just in case." My younger sisters nod and set off again searching. 

We found 2 more books, some of Alex's favorites, then set off for the store. 

"What candy does Alex like?" 
"mmm, M&M's, Hershey bars, starbursts, skittles, " Eliza continues to list off candy as we grab what we can. 

 By the time we leave the store we had a bag full of candy, drinks, and crackers. 
 
"I'm worried about Lex Angie." Eliza talks to me form the passenger seat, as I drive to the hospital.

"Yeah, I think we all are. Just, nervous about his mental condition." 
"Yeah." 
"Hopefully we can make him feel better!" Peggy hopefully glances at Eliza and me, begging for some sort of approval, although, I think Eliza and I both know that we maybe won't help. But we just smile and nod, not wanting to crush Peg's spirit. 


Once we get to the hospital we head straight to Alexander's room. When we walk in, Alex, who is on Thomas' lap, is struggling with the T.V remote, while Thomas laughs trying to help, but stubborn Alex refuses. 

"We have book and food!" Peg shouts holding up the bag of goodies. 

"ooooo!!!" Alex makes grabby hands towards the bag. We hand the bag over as he shuffles through, looking at the food, drinks, and books. 


We laugh as he pulls out the book that Peg had first picked out. He gasped and started hugging the book saying 'thank you' over and over. 

"No problem Lex!" 
"HHHhhheeeeeeyyyyy, I'm supposed to call him that." Thomas fake pouts as the rest of us laugh again. 

"Thank you guys so much. They don't give me anything sweet here." 
" Again no problem! But ya do know some of the candy in there iiiisss sharing size!" Peggy says smirking a  bit. I slap her arm lightly. 

She giggles. "I'm only joking!" 
 
"So, how'd yall get my books? Did you guys break into my apartment?" 
"uuuuuhhh, well. Ya see how else would we get you your books?" I ask, a little nervous about his response. 


"Oh well sounds reasonable." He shrugs lightly starting to giggle.

We sat in a comfortable silence before I spoke up again.  

"So, how are ya'll doing?" I ask, concern lacing my tone. 

"W-well, I'm, I'm trying to be okay." 
"He had a panic attack, worse than I've ever seen it before," Thomas speak's the truth. Alex has a begging look in his eyes as he looks up at Thomas. 

"What?" Eliza makes her way to Alex and rubs his arm. 

"Alex, is that true?" 
He hesitates before talking again. 
"Why, why would Thomas lie?" We all gasp. But he was fine.

I see Alex's eyes glaze over. He turns to Thomas and buries his head in his chest. Thomas wraps his arms tightly and protectively around him. 

It was an uncomfortable silence after that. But soon Alex seems to come to terms with what happened. 

"Why?! Why would you tell them!? I'm going to be babied! Why would you do that to me?!" His eyes look frosted over and blurred, but his face shows one of anger. 

"Alex stop! Thomas was doing the right thing! We deserve to know! We won't baby you but we should know!" Eliza says. 
Alex sinks further into Thomas a few tears spilling over. 

I think he knows that Eliza is right. 

He mumbles out an apology to us three. 

Thomas seems disappointed in some way but holds him tight. 
"Well, we're gonna go and get some lunch, we'll come back later today," I say ushering my sisters out, I sense ed a tension in the room between Alex and Thomas and figured that we should leave. 

Thomas nods. Alex stares at his lap, a few sniffles being heard, but barely audible. 

"Why'd we leave so early Ange?" 
"Because I feel like Thomas and Alexander need to talk some things out. Not with us there so we left."

"Oh." 
"I don't like that Alex is having panic attacks again." 
"Neither do I. How about we try not to think about it and go out for lunch." 

They nod in agreement. * 

The Schuyler's left and it didnt take long for Alex to start up a conversation. 




A/N OOOOOOooooo, what happens after the Schuyler's leave? I don't know! Or maybe I do! Sorry, it took a while to get this out. I know it was uneventful but whos to say that next chapter is gonna be a rough one?? Well hope you enjoyed, thank you for reading, commenting and voting 
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