One Shots [Niam]

I Will Never Forget

SHIP: Niam

WARNING THIS STORY CONTAINS: Abusive Relationship, Suicide, Substance Abuse

Niall's Pov:

Theres a clearing at the cemetery. Ive been to this spot many times before with Liam when we would take long walks together without a care in the world. But this time, it was different.

I stood under the tall oak in the cold air. I tucked my hands into my pockets of my sweatshirt, recalling Liam and I's first kiss. This was the exact spot that I first kissed Liam.

That moment was so perfect. We finally admitted our love for each other. We waited until the right moment to kiss. He pushed me against the tree and looked into my eyes before pressing his lips against mine. How his lips tasted I will never forget. After that moment, I only loved him more as time went on.

He became my everything. Liam was more to me then anyone knew. He was always there for me when no one else was. I felt like I could be myself around him and still be accepted. Ive never felt closer to anyone then I have with him and I never will feel that love I felt towards him towards anyone else besides him.

I looked down at where I was standing. I kneeled down and placed a rose on the slab of rock in front of me. I traced my fingers over the words on it.

"Liam James Payne.

August 29th 1993 - July 25th 2014

He will forever be in our hearts."

"Hey Liam." I spoke to myself. "I hope you're looking down on me from heaven. If I could, I would look right back up at you and smile." I cracked a grin, laughing a bit. I let out a deep sigh. "I hope you know I miss you." I admitted. "I know it might seem like Ive moved on." I paused briefly. "But I never will. You're the only one for me."

"Im still in a relationship with the guy I was with last time I was here. I know he abuses me, but he needs me. I figure, if he would just have someone to love him, he wouldn't act like he does all the time. I try my best to make him happy, but I never can."

I clenched my fists in my lap and shut my eyes as hard as I could. A tear fell from my eyes.

"Thats what happened with you. I didn't love you enough. Maybe if I loved you right, you wouldn't have been upset all the time." My voice cracked. "Maybe if I loved you more, you wouldn't have hurt yourself like this." I whimpered.

"Im learning from my mistakes though."

I wiped my eyes from the tears and sighed. Shaking my head, I continued. "The rest of the boys are good. Harrys still in a bit of a depression since you've left. Ive tried my best to help him recover the pieces. But Im awful at that... Zayn's still using drugs to cope with the sadness. Trying to help him is useless. He just gets angry all the time. Sometimes he hits me if I tell him to stop. Louis drinks constantly ever since you've left. I figure he's just really angry and upset. If only I could have loved you better, then maybe this wouldn't have happened and everyone would be happy. But like I said, Im learning from my mistakes."

I heard a truck honk behind me. A voice shouts at me. "Hey fag! Ive been looking everywhere for you! Should have known you were here again!" He shouted at me.

"Im not here enough." I whisper. "Ill be over in a minute babe!"

"Thats him Liam. Thats the boy that I will love endlessly. Just like how you loved me. I better get going Liam." I stood up, facing the tree but still looking down at the grave. "I will never forget Liam... I will never forget."

I turned my back with tears streaming down my face. I started walking to my boyfriends red truck. I blinked and tears continued to fall to the ground. "I will never forget." I whispered to myself before climbing into his truck