The boy next door//jesse underhill smut

chapter 14

warning suicidal parts

I see gunter with kori sitting at a table eating I hurried to the bathroom so they didn't see me I went into a big stall and broke down in a cry it hurt so much to see gunter with another girl especially my best friend even tho I couldn't have him I just texted zephan

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me: do you mind if we go somewhere else, please

zephan: why

me: I just read a review parently they don't sell pancakes anymore and I want some pancakes

zephan: sure ill pull the car up front

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I then went to the sink and wiped my face then I grabbed my stuff and headed out people stopped zephan from going I walked over then people wanted pics from me to which drawed attention to us kori and gunter got up and walked towards us holding hands which broke me even more than I was I just put a smile on my face I didn't want anyone to know how I felt. I also wanted to run home and call my ibf's Sebastian and Oliver Moy I could trust them I loved them they were so sweet and always there for me I mostly called them sebby or oli god I needed to talk to them right now

gunter: hey y/n and zephan didn't see you guys here

me: neither did I *fake laughs*

zephan: yea we were just leaving

me: yep

kori: why don't you come sit with us couple to couple

I CANT BELIEVE THERE A COUPLE WHY IS EVERYONE I LOVE GONE I almost cried but I held it in

me: sorry we have to go

zephan: no we don't what are you talking about

me: oh ok I will meet you at the table can I get the keys I left something in the car

zephan: sure

I took the keys from zephan ran to the car started it and drove away I drove back to the house every 5 seconds my phone was going off all 3 of them kept calling me but I didn't answer I went upstairs crying and I face timed Sebastian

me: sebby I need you here I can't do this anymore

sebastian: what happened

me: you know how I cant be with Jesse or gunter

sebastian: yea?

me:zephan fought Jesse and kori and gunter are dating now my life is falling apart and all I know is to call you or oli

sebastian: it's going to be ok me and oli are here for you and we love you

me and Sebastian talked for about another 5 minutes then Oliver came to get Sebastian they had to go take pics so we hung up me and Sebastian and Oliver still hadn't met but we will soon I hope I still sat there and cried I hadn't felt better 2 hours no one came home so I went downstairs to grab a knife I was crying so hard I sat behind the island where no one could see me and I cut myself I know I made a promise but I had to break it I didn't know what to do anymore just then I blacked out-read the next chapter to find out what happened to you