I was so tired and so sick of people
Letting them in , giving them the power to destroy me
Walk all over me
Leaving me in the lurch
I was so tired of it all
Disappointed every time they turned away
I was so sick of attachments and the after affects they left
I was so done with everyone and everything
I was so sick of my innate desire of companionship
I loathed myself for I was always in search of some company
Mostly I was disappointed at myself for I was scared of being lonely
Scared so scared
Living in a constant fear
My whole life became a horror story
Letting people in waiting for them to catch the next train
Always dreading the moment they ll leave
Chasing stars far and distant
I hated myself for my expectations were gonna be the death of me .
And inside me was this ocean of sadness
And I was so tired of trying and all I ever heard was madness
Echoing through the never ending sadness
