ADDICTED

Addicted-Trying

.Addicted.

.TRYING.

I was over at Julian's house just to chill. I hardly chilled with him since ever Jamel was born, but at least I had my boys Day Day and Trevor also my lil bro Taylor since he moved back to L.A for college.

We rolled one as we watched some movie on Netflix. Gema went out to work with the baby, so we just decided to smoke a blunt. A lots happened in two years, and now I have to line them up. My mom didn't even want to speak to me again cause I acted a fool in that period. Everythings gonna come back and bite my ass.

I liked coming over J's house cause it looked like every thing has been polished. It was always clean unless Jam was playing with his toys or eating. The floors were always waxed. It was shiny.

"Do you like your life?" Julian said randomly.

I exhaled the smoke "Fuck you mean, bro?"

He took the blunt from me taking a hit then passed it back "Why you messing with Midnight again? I saw y'all walking together"

Puffing the joint, I replied in a hasty voice "Is it a crime to catch up with a person? I ain't see her like this in two years"

"You made the decision to stop visiting her and then made even dumber decisions, but as my boy I still have to support you" he shook his head "But nigga... you dumb as fuck"

"Why I got to be all that?" I shrugged "I have real feelings for her, that was the whole point of getting her initials tatted"

"And I peep too, she got your initials on her thigh. She don't deserve to be put in all your bull, bro. Just set her free now"

I laughed "Hell no! Letting go of Midnight is like you letting go of Gema. Her and Midnight in the same bullshit"

"Don't bring my girl in this" he shook his head "Gema don't got anger issues like Midnight, Gema told me some of the shit Midnight did"

I looked at him. waiting for him to spill the ' T'.

"Like murder nigga. Gema said she herself shot one or two people, but they ain't dead, but Midnight actually killed niggas. Just make sure you ain't one of them"

"She killed people? Like for real?" I scratched the crook of my neck nervously.

He nodded "Don't say a word about it. Gem says she feels pressure when people bring it up like it's wrong"

I killed the blunt placing it inside ashtray "It is, but I don't need no pressure from her"

"Y'all fucked on the beach?" he said loudly walking into the kitchen.

I shook my head following behind him. I opened the Gray double door fridge and grabbed a bottle of water.

"So you banged her at the beach? What she say after y'all banged? Talk to me bro" he opened a big bag of barbecue Lays.

"She ain't let me smash, but she let me finger her and kiss her. All she kept telling me was do better, even when I gave her the passes"

"Really? She making you wait nigga. You gonna have blue balls for two years waiting for her to come through"

"Naw, I got my ways with her just like she has hers with me"

I went back to my house and Zero ran up on me. Gema took Zero during the time Middy was in jail, but gave him to me cause she was a bit afraid of him. Middy ain't know I had him anyways. Luckily, he was at a play date with the poodle next door when I had that party.

I didn't know where Midnight was staying since she was released. All her things were in a storage, but I don't know if she got them back.

I filled his doggie bowl up with dog food and the other with water. He was a messy, fast eater. He had an appetite on him.