Half a heart(Harry Styles)

Chapter 13- Say something

Tessa (POV )

Harry has kept to himself he's quite now and well they said that he chose to stay mute and we would have to let him talk when he's ready I can't look at Harry seeing him like that hurts me and I just go to alcohol smoking and cutting.

I walked out to the balcony of the hotel I leaned against the wall and pulled out the lighter and lit it up I puffed out letting the smoke escape my lips I felt a tear escape my eye and then more came at the memory

flashback

"In Harry's case from what's happened this is the only easy way for him to cope and in order to help him just forgive him talk to him and tell him it's OK he needs to know that "the doctor said we all nodded I sighed

"I guess we have to go and do what the doctor said for Harry's sake and Tessa your first "said Liam I looked down and shook my head "I can't "I whispered the boys looked at me in shock and in a second Louis eyes flashed with anger
"you can't or you won't "he spat he didn't let me answer "your being selfish ok just forget it Tessa move on if he does talk and forgive you what's done is done its not going to change what happened "he spat and walked of with the boys I couldn't because I wasn't selfish they can't expect me to go and give Harry a pat in the back and tell him oh it's OK what you did was forgivable don't worry I'm fine when I'm not

flashback over

the boys have talked to Harry and have ignored me which I guess I'm fine with it toss my cigarette bud away and walked back in to see Harry eating quietly to say I was already frustrated he wasn't the only one hurt I was and I still am I sat down and ran my fingers through my hair I sighed and picked at my sandwich and crisps "Tessa can you pick up Harry's plate "said Zayn in a flat tone I looked at Zayn I stood up quickly as my chair slid across the floor "I'm tired of this "I shouted and ran out the door to the pub a few streets down we were currently in Chicago

"give me some whiskey "I ordered a few drinks later I was tipsy but not drunk so I knew what I was doing when I got back from the pub I saw they were all going to their room I looked at Harry and I snapped I just couldn't see him like this not when I was hurting as well I walked up to him and he stared right through me

"talk harry "I told him calmly at first and he was quite no sound at all I pushed against his chest "talk goddammit "I yelled my voice cracking as tears spilled down my face "Fuck Harry please I'm sorry ok I'm hurting too I can't see you like this just please don't do this to yourself self"i cried I crumpled to the floor on my knees and my hands over my face "I'm sorry just talk "I managed to sob out I looked up to see Harry walking away "don't leave again Harry I'm sorry "I yelled again sobbing as I saw him walk away I expected for the boys to walk away but they kneeled down and hugged me soothing me everytime I started to cry harder the boys went to bed as sat in the kitchen I let a few tears slip here and there onto the piece of paper I had stuffed in my pocket two weeks ago the one that Kendall took and I sang it

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape