Life isn't still. It goes up and down and up and down until we die. And just like that, my happiness didn't last long. We live to make mistakes and regret after all.
On August 15, 2014
We were at my relative's house. Everyone was in the living room. We were in my cousin's room, taking tea and talking about weird random stuff and laughing. The lights were off. Suddenly I felt her breath on my face. Heart started to beat faster. And without realising what was going on,
We kissed.
It was awkward after that and we awkwardly laughed. We both didn't understand what was happening.
The next morning I called her and told her that, "let's pretend it never happened and let's be more careful"
She agreed and also said that she regrets too.
But the next time we met, we couldn't tame the temptation of doing it one last time. Because logically,
We were into guys but our parents won't ever allow us to date anyone and no one would doubt us if we did it. And it wasn't something romantic as well. We both knew that we're curious teenager. So it was like a deal. And like that we became friends with benefits.
But things changed between us forever. She was like my cornerstone. And I used to tell her everything every time we met and we used to spend quality time together. But after that day everytime we met, it just felt like she came to me just to feel better differently. Nothing serious existed between us anymore. And I had to constantly lie to my parents because of her which made me feel like the biggest living criminal. She made me cry all night by blackmailing me for no reasons. And she didn't care anymore. I couldn't take it. And I couldn't talk about it with anyone as well. And she was everything I had.
And finally I realized that I was lost again.
