"I'm sorry for doing that before. I'm here to ask for forgiveness. I had my reasons to avoid you. But I didn't leave. If I really decided to leave then I would have blocked you but I didn't do it. So please"
It was a normal day. When I opened my messenger to check the messages just like every other day and found this message from A, I couldn't stop crying. The chapter I had to close forcefully was opened again and I couldn't bear it. But I like I was over it and acted really cold. I told J about it. J was always neutral about it so I he was never helpful when it came to me and A. Even tho I was giving A a cold treatment I forgave him immediately.
21st December 2016
I got screenshots from A, of his chat with a random girl. He said it was his girlfriend.
"So it really was just me. He never really considered me as something more than just a friend."
That's what I thought and decided to focus on moving on. But J was seeing someone and I couldn't help it. My friendship with J was a mess.
On the other side, A tried to be good friends. But I avoided him and muted him. Whenever he wanted to call me I always made excuses and avoided it. Not because I was annoyed. But because I didn't want to fall in love again. With the same guy. One more time. And most importantly he was taken. So it was TORTUROUS.
-Hey what are you up to
-stalking a goddess on Instagram, wanna see?
-your wifeu? 😏
-*link*
-I don't know what's wrong with her, she's acting really weird. *sends screenshots*
-most probably you pissed her off we have to find it out.
-She broke up. I'm not okay
-Are you crying, A?
-.......
-Just let her go, there are surely a lot of people out there who can treat you better..... you just have to look around.....
-No I can't. I will wait.
-Sure...
-SHE'S BACK, THIS IS A MIRACLE
-OMG I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU OMG
I knew even though he said that he was happy, he needed a place to hide just like me. And the temptation of making him happy made my practical senses surrender. But I,
Was just a friend.
