[poetry] complex simplicity | ✔

tug of war

there's a raging game of tug of war 

going on inside my heart. 

bottled up emotions 

fighting and jumping, 

bruising the walls of my heart. 

there's an aching inside, 

one that i can't deny.

half of me says i hate you, 

that i should put up my own wall 

and stop trying to jump over yours. 

if you have caused my heart 

so much pain, 

i shouldn't know you 

at all.

half of me says i want you, 

that i should never give up chasing you. 

my brain knows that's rubbish, 

because that never 

worked out for me. 

my heart pounding 

tells me otherwise.

cold shoulders 

and blocked 

social medias. 

not having you in my life 

was a breath of fresh air, 

a whiff of being free. 

small smiles 

and active 

group chats. 

air was fresh without you, 

but perhaps i preferred 

the old scent.

i should probably get over this.

i feel jealous. i'm not your friend anymore.

i feel jealous. you know so many girls... i'm insignificant.

this tug of war inside my heart, 

will soon grow 

to be too much to bear. 

i just hope 

that the rope won't snap 

and leave my heart in two pieces.

a/n---

yo guys guess what i have another piece of trash for yall!!

this poem be pretty accurate tho.

oops~