poems 'n shit

anxiety

my heart rate fastens.
i start tapping.

i can't focus.
what's happening?

goosebumps.
the overwhelming coldness takes over.
i can feel the crisp air under my skin.

so cold.
why am i so cold?

the cold consumes me.
shivers.
teeth clattering.
shaking.

i need a blanket.
i need warmth.

sweat.
sweat trickles down my frozen skin.

i'm so cold yet i'm dripping sweat.

i can't breathe.
something's holding down my chest.
i gasp for air but to no avail.

i can't stand.
i need to lay down.

i don't make it.
i fall.
can't breathe.
so cold.
my visions blurs.

i can't see.

everything's black.

i gasp for air.
long breaths.
4, 4, 4.
breathe in for four.
hold for four.
release for four.
tap my fingers.
make sure i'm awake.
vision clears.
when did i start crying?
i'm okay.
it's okay.

everything's okay.