poems 'n shit

really emo

my eyes burn.
hot tears pour down my face as i realize
they don't care.
nobody fucking cares anymore.
who am i to complain?
i was the one that pushed them all away.

i will never understand the bonds people have.
why can't i have that?
i'm never capable of keeping someone around me.
just look at my "friends" now.
they plan without me.
they don't include me.
they forget about me.
like everyone does.

don't bother talking to me.
our friendship won't last,
they never do.
i'm sorry i'm toxic.
i'm sorry i'm so sad.
i'm sorry i post depressing lyrics and make people sad,
i promise i'm trying to help.
but it's no use,
no one likes being around a sad, sad girl like me.

please forgive me for all i've done.
changing who i am is harder than it looks.
i've tried it forcefully,
which backfired.
i tried by joining a sport,
hoping to loose some weight.
it didn't work.
i've trued mentally,
which just screwed me up even more.
i'm sorry for trying me hardest,
please forgive me.