Staged |Jack Avery|

Twenty-Seven: Lesbian Jesus

The night before was a blast, but I can't cant seem to remember much of it.

"Jack?" I groan as i cover my eyes from the light and try to look around

"Oh! Well look who's up."  I think Jonah is the one talking

"...Jonah?" I mumble and turn to where I heard the voice from

"And Zach."

"And jack." He says from behind me

"What?" I mumble as i rub my eyes then look around

"You remember anything from last night?" Zach asks, sounding more serious

"Not much, why?" I yawn

"What's the last thing you remember?" Jack asks coldly

"... we went out after the concert?" I say almost as a question

"Yes, and?" Zach continues

"Fuck this, Where's the aspirin?" I ask looking for the kitchen and trying to get up

"You almost slept with Hailey." Jack says with no emotion

"I what, with who now?" I ask holding onto the wall

"Exactly what i just said." Jack speaks again

"Hailey? Like, lesbian jesus?" I ask trying to remember

"....Lesbian Jesus?" Jonah asks trying to hold back a laugh

"Yeah, Hailey Kyoko. Uh, Lesbian jesus. Ya know.... uh, the Girls like girls like boy's do, nothin new chick." I stumble about my words

"Yeah she definitely like's girls alright, i just didn't know you did as well." Jack rolls his eyes as he speaks

"Okay jackass. Look, I'm sorry if i did some shit last night i shouldn't have. Y'all already know damn well not to intoxicate me. I totally understand why you would be upset with that, but be liking girls as well as guys, that i don't see a problem with so if there is one, you better have a damn good explanation as to why." I push my headache aside for a moment as i argue my point

"Oh shut the hell up, Nikki. You know this isn't about that. I would have liked to know, yes. But you know just as well as everyone else that it isn't about that. Its about us. About you and me." He yells

"And what about it?" I ask as i fold my arms

"We don't mix well. I have anger problems, you have a provoking problem. You pick and you are so damn stubborn. That along with me getting pissed, Whats good about any of this? In who's mind does that go well? No ones, nikki. No ones. We said we would try, but whats the use in that if we cant even get along for more than five minutes Because were too busy feeding off each other? Huh? And don't even begin yo argue with me on this, you should know just as well as anyone thats all we do. You buddy up with Jonah or Zach because you know it'll make me mad, and in return i'm a cold hearted asshole who pays you no attention because i know that will make you mad. Who were we kidding, Nikki? We could never work. We never did, and were never going to. Who were we fooling?" He yells in anger, waving his hands around as he screams

"Well, for a while there... you had me pretty fooled." I take a breath before turning and leaving

"Nikki, wait." Zach calls out as he follows behind me

"Im sorry, Zach. But he's right, the only person he was fooling, was me." I wipe my eyes as i talk

"He had us pretty fooled to." He says quietly as he wraps his arms around me

"It'll be okay, Nikki. Just give it time." He hugs me tighter

It's funny, how this all works out. We all knew it wasn't going to work, anyone could have guessed. That is, if they knew the whole story. How it started, how it was when the camera was off.
We cared for each other, i know that much. But as he said, we fed off each others venerability without even knowing it, and you can't run a relationship off of that. You just can't. The saddest part of it all, is that we all knew this. It was so clear to us all, but we were so blind to it. And Because of us being blind, we got hurt. We all got hurt, Jack, Zach, everyone. All because we refused to see the reality of the situation we put ourselves in.. and to make matters even worse

Here i am, sitting here. Being held by my best friend, only wishing for one thing. For us all to be blind again.

For us all to go back, go back to being venerable. Go back to being blind.

Because it's what made us happiest, and i know i'm not the only one hoping for it... but i also know that if it happens again, so will this.

And i just don't know if I'm willing to put Jack through that. To put anyone through that...