Afraid To Fall

9

*James' POV*

She hurts herself?? She self harms?? Because of me? Wow, I felt sick at myself. I never did mean to take it this far. I've put her through so much and I couldn't see that she was hurting, how could I be such a fucking prick? My heart sunk when she said "You", I was the reason for her feeling shit about herself. I picked her up when she fell in the Art cupboard, I felt guilty and it was my fault after all.

The truth is..I thought she was beautiful. My friends however, well that's a different story.

They've all hated her since forever. Cheyenne, the girl who everyone knew as "head of the popular gang" was jealous of Anisa, so she'd make us hurt her in anyway we could. If we didn't do it then we'd simply be kicked out of the group.

I thought about why I bullied Anisa again and I hit my head off the wall several times. How could I be so stupid? I hurt her for all these years for what? Just so that I could have a little bit of popularity.

*RING RING*

I stopped thinking about the hurt I'd caused and looked at the Caller ID on my phone. It was Antonio, or Tony. He was my "best friend". I ignored his call because I knew it would most likely be about Anisa, and I didn't need any of them saying crap about her right now!

*PING*

I look down at my phone again to see that Tony had messaged me. I opened the text that read:

"Come early tomorrow, we've got something planned"

I deleted the text and turned my phone off. I didn't want to be involved in this anymore. And if that meant me having to pay for it, then I'd do anything to protect Anisa now, even if it was a bit too late.

*NEXT MORNING*

*Anisa's POV*

I woke up feeling really refreshed. I lay in James' bed for a few minutes and tried to comprehend how he could be so lovely to me at one minute and then the next he would be so torturous.

As I was about to climb out the bed, the door opened and James walked in.

"I thought I'd give you a ride to school today?" he offered.

"No it's ok, I'll manage to walk." I stubbornly reply.

"No, I said you can come with me." his voice was sharp and he ruffled his hand through his hair.

"But...I don't have anything to wear" I tell him.

"That's alright, we can skip school today then. I'll take you back to your house and you can get changed and I'll take you out." his voice was so sweet.

Wait, why was he all of a sudden being really nice and kind? He was never like this. This is not the James that I've become used to.

"Well how do I know that you're not just taking me somewhere so that you can kill me?" I joke on.

"Because even if I have been a prick, I would never get that low" he said seriously.

He got up and held his arms out, I placed my hands in his and he pulled me up. He held onto me but I didn't complain. It was cute.

James drove me back to my house, I was still in his clothes. My mum's car wasn't in the drive way, so she'd already left for work. I felt so bad on her because ever since my dad passed away, she had to be both a mother and father to me. She also had to pay for all the food and bills and I admire how strong she's been through all of this.

We got out the car and I told James to wait downstairs in the living room and make him self at home. I quickly ran upstairs and opened my wardrobe.

"I have nothing to wear, ugh" I complained to myself. I felt a pair of hands come out infront of me and I heard a voice say: "That's cute."

James was stood there pulling out a pair of black shorts and a light blue crop top.

"You should wear this. Blue looks really good on you." he said and smiled.

I did a little nervous giggle, wow, he made me feel good.

"Okay, James. Since when did you become an expert in girls clothing?"

"I've always been a secret diva." He joked. "No but seriously, I just know what looks good on you." he winked and that made me feel some way?

I gave him a smile and told him to get out so I could change into the outfit he chose.

After I got changed and did my makeup, I opened my bedroom door hoping to show off my outfit but James wasn't standing there.

"James, where are you omg?" I said while running down the stairs.

"Hey, calm down. I'm in the living room." he replied back quickly.

When I walked in I saw him standing next to the fire place with one of the photos off our display in his hand.

"How come you've never mentioned your Dad? Does he live abroad?" James asked.

"Erm no...he passed away" I said and then felt a big lump in my throat. My eyes started watering and the next thing you know I was crying Niagra Falls. Whenever it came to the topic about my father, it was always a hard thing for me to talk about.

"Shit! I'm so sorry Anisa, I didn't know. Please don't be mad at me." he wrapped his muscular arms around me and bathed me in a tight hug.

That kinda set my mood off and I didn't feel like doing anything that outrageous or fun today so I asked James if we could stay in my house and watch movies. James agreed to this as he could see that I was upset after our conversation about my father.

We both settled on watching The Lion King and I was surprised because I didn't think he'd want to watch it. I thought guts and gory were more his kinda thing. James sat on the sofa while I went and got some snacks together.

"CAN YOU FEEL THE LOVE TONIGHT" I got up and started to sing and dance along to the song. I heard James chuckle and I couldn't help but pull him up off the sofa and join me.

We danced and skipped all around the living room. It felt so magical, like when I was a little girl. This side of James was the best thing I've ever seen. I tried savouring our time together like this because I never knew when mean James would come back.

I didn't let the happenings from before take over my mind, I focused myself back on the song and mine and James' horrific dancing.

"LOVE IS WHERE THEY ARE" I sung along as the song came to it's end and me and James looked at each other and smiled. I felt like a princess.

And before I could say anything, we both leaned in....