Afraid To Fall

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*Anisa's POV*

James looked pretty nervous when I leaned into him. I knew he wasn't worried about my dad because he's dealt with much worse but this was something that I felt wasn't so good? I sat up and took his hand in mine. 

"Babe, what's wrong?" I asked, really curious as to why he wasn't his normal self.

"Anisa, listen. Okay? You have to hear me out and listen to what I say. Please don't get mad."

The words that came out of his mouth made my heart sink. This really couldn't be good. I nodded and agreed..

"Okay, so before I asked  you out, like a few months before me and Ashleigh went on a night out together. We both got pretty drunk and ended up having sex. She rang me yesterday evening and told me she went to the doctors to find out she's pregnant...and it's a pretty big chance that the kid is mine! I really didn't want to break this to you but I didn't want anyone else to get there before I did. I don't understand how this could've happened, it was just one stupid night...I love you okay?" James explained.

I looked up to him and tears were rolling down his cheeks. Someone could've stabbed me 100 times and it would be less painful than this moment right now. 

*James' POV* 

Anisa's reaction was not what I was expecting. Actually, it was the total opposite. She pulled me in for a long tight hug.

"James, shhh don't cry! It's going to be okay"

"What about us though?" I blurted out.

She looked down, her eyes filled with sorrow, she took a deep breath and began, "Listen, I love you so so much too. You mean the world to me, you know that and I don't want to lose you. But you're going to have to focus your time on Ashleigh and the baby now. It won't work with us being together. Like, you're going to be a dad!! That little child is going to need your attention and all the loving he/she can get. There can't be an us anymore, I'm sorry" 

*Anisa's POV*

I got up quickly and planted a kiss on his lips for what would probably be the last time. I stood up and walked out of my house because I felt like I was choking on the bitterness of the air. It was a lot to take in and I couldn't cope right now. I didn't know what to do. I figured I would go to Felice's house because she would know what to do, she could help me through this.

I began walking and slowly I felt lighter and lighter, my eyes were stinging from all the water that was leaking  out of them and my body was so numb, like I'd been beaten black and blue. My eyes started tearing up again and I was walking, I kept going and I had no clue to where I was walking. 

"JAMES?" "FELICE?" "ANYBODY?" I began screaming. 

I was so tired and confused and my eyes weren't really helping me either. I couldn't see anything. 

Before I could make out where I was walking, I seen a big flash of light in my eyes and loud honking noises. Now I could feel nothing but the bones in my body crushing.