Yours truly, Nova Ahr

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Nova's p.o.v

Secrets, we all have them, right?

I have some, quite a few actually, I won't get into it, but my biggest? I am the sister of Gustav Ahr, or better known as 'Lil Peep'

I'm so proud of him and where he's come, he is an absolute angel, and treats everyone with respect, unless you're an asshole, then fuck you. But there's a downside to everything, mine being that Gus doesn't want anyone knowing about me; he says that his world's fucked up and he doesn't want me getting hurt. In the beginning it was cute but it sucks not having any social media - none whatsoever.

But that didn't stop me from downloading Instagram and making myself an account.

Name: Nova Eleena Ahr
Username : Nova_A
Birthday : 4th August 1998
Bio : I just came down from the high of my life :)

"Hey Nora," Gus smiled.

I gave him 'the look' - To this day our old homeroom teacher's mistake still haunted me because someone couldn't let it go. Apparently Mrs Wood calling me Nora instead of Nova was absolutely hilarious...luckily for me it wasn't just me she humiliated.

"Hola Gustavo,"

"Novvvvaaaa why??"

Gus fell next to me on the couch, clearly enjoying the little time he had at home.

"Just get to the point,"

"You know you love me?" He grinned, showing his goofy smile which could literally brighten anyone's day.

"Ever so dearly"

Hiding my phone from him so he wouldn't see what I was doing, I could feel his hopeful eyes on me but pretended not to know this. Even when we were kids he was like this; although no body cared cause (to this day) he was always adorable when doing it.

"Can you make your pancakes? I've been craving them for days"

I wasn't surprised when he asked for this, tour life involved a lot of fast food (i.e McDonald's breakfast) so my pancakes were a blessing for him.

"Of course, I'll start making them now, but anyways, did you sleep alright?" I asked, setting my phone on the counter and opening the cupboard.

"Uh, the usual"

The usual being so wrapped up in his own destructive thoughts that he was up until he could see the sun. It was a trait we shared.

"Do I need to go shopping later? For food and stuff because every time you're home you demand ice cream cause you're too stoned to get your own," I laughed, stirring up the pancake mix.

"If you could, I'm sure mama would appreciate it too," He smiled, and leaned back in his chair; I saw him pick up my phone and start to take silly selfies which sent my anxiety through the roof - I did lock my phone right?

"I'll go in a bit, do you want anything specific?"

I already knew what he was going to say.

"Can you pick up some Indian food? I'll pay," he smiled, still taking photos of himself with his tongue out.

I flipped over his pancakes and tried to stay calm, he's only taking selfies Nova. Relax. But I couldn't relax, I knew it was stupid how I was this worried over a fucking app but deep down I also knew it was probably for good reason.

I just didn't know it yet.

I finished up Gus' pancakes and brought them over to him on his favourite plate, Gus has a favourite everything in our house.

"You, my beautiful sister, are amazing," He smiled, giving a cheesy grin.

"Shut up Gus no I'm not," I replied, rolling my eyes as I continued to make my pancakes.

"So...how you liking Instagram so far?"

I had no idea on what to say; was he mad? Sad? Okay with it? Everyone in Long Island knows how protective he is over me so was he gonna blow it out of proportion? I really didn't know. And neither did my now burnt pancakes.

"It's okay, I'm not mad. I just can't stand you getting dragged into my world -"

"- It'll get me hurt I know, I know. But don't you think I worry about you? I've lost count how many times you've overdosed and barely made it out alive"

As he fell silent I cleaned up the mess and settled for a bowl of cereal instead; lucky charms to be exact.

"Nova...I'm used to it, but you? It'll kill you. Me? I can look after myself"

I sat down next to him on the couch and snorted.

"No you can't"

"Yes I can nora- i promise"

"You promise a lot of things you don't keep Gustavo"

I grumbled the last part and munched on my charms, changing the channel from adventure time to F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

"Really? Name one"

Challenge accepted.

"You promised you would get me a bike for my 9th birthday, I wouldn't have to do the dishes, I could sit in the front seat, you wouldn't do as many drugs, you would get me and my friends weed..."

".........I said one"

I gotta love this big goof but he's such a fucking nerd.

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