solangelo at hogwarts

10. For all of the times I never could

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!!! Trigger Warning: verbal and physical abuse !!!

Nico's PoV:

Will and I had a wonderful weekend, full of nothing at all actually. Or not nothing at all, just nothing stressful or worrisome. We went out for a picknick in, what the Wizards and Witches call, the forbidden forest. Why I don't know, we did spot some Acromantulas though and said hi to a few centaurs, but that's it.

The day after the picknick we just hung around our room, cuddling and kissing a bit; okay a lot, we kissed a lot...and it may have led to other things as well, anyway. Right now we were in our bed, Will reading a book and me thinking of the anxiety attack I had a couple of days ago, healthy right?

Flashback

Will and I were on our way to that DA.DA class and I was scared out of my mind, what if I faced something in that room that I couldn't handle or I had a Flashback just because we were going to do an exercise that involved inducing dark magic. What if I and shadow traveled away; how would we explain that to our classmates and at the same time try to convince them that I was not a Death-eater?

I didn't want Will to know that I was having a hard time though, so I kept walking. I started to drag my thump across my index finger, one of the signs that I was nervous or having a beginning of an anxiety attack.

I blinked and when I opened my eyes I wasn't in a corridor anymore, I was standing in the middle of literal hell, monsters everywhere; nowhere to hide, nowhere to run and nothing to keep me from seeing everything for what it really was. The ground breathing, much calmer than my rapid breaths. Suddenly I heard a voice:

"Nico ...., look at me." But I didn't want to look at anything in this hell before I could close my eyes however, someone with tender care took a hold of my head and I saw two blue orbs, they're beautiful and it felt like I'd seen them before. I felt myself being moved and everything became dark. This time it's comforting darkness, I can smell something homey, and it calmed me down. I stayed in the same position but blinked and I can, again, hear a voice, the same voice.

"You are doing so good, I'm here, breath darling. I love you. I love you so much...."

"Will..?"

End of flashback

I turned to Will, seeing that he already was looking at me and smiled a little. We hadn't broached the subject of my anxiety attack yet, but I knew he wanted to know what had brought it on. I turned on my side facing him, and he did the same. We smiled at each other and he quickly pecked me on my lips. I blushed a little and began to tell him why it happened. And like every time: he helped me fully calm down and we fell asleep in each other's arms.

The next day

Will and I stood at the front of our classroom, waiting for Draco to show up and just as the clock chimed eight, he stepped inside the room, quietly closing the door behind him. He gave us a nod and made his way over to us.

We placed ourselves in the love seat while Draco occupied the armchair opposite us. I looked at Draco and found him gazing at me. When he saw that I caught his eyes he lowered his gaze; interesting.

"Welcome, Draco. I'm happy you decided to come to one of these meetings, and by yourself too. We've heard a bit about you." At that Draco stilled, I ignored it and continued. "However we would like to make our own opinions regarding people, so just know that we don't know you and we do not judge you." He relaxed and sank deeper into the armchair.